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2010-11-22T21:50:00.001-08:00

Verse

I remember the first time I met you, I was at the wrong side of your place

I remember the first time you saw me, You thought that I was such a disgrace

Did you remember on the first night that we talked, I told you a joke about a bread

That made you laugh so hard, And smile real wide

You would sing a song from Bruno Mars, But I’ll be giving a deaf ear

I’d blast my metal music, And you would say its’ such a blur

We didn’t thought we could even last a month, But we’re now more than a year

Don’t you worry, We’ll be more than a century

Chorus

Cause I know that we’ll always be together

Cause I know that we’ll always be forever

Cause I know that we’ll always be faithful to one another

Cause I know, Cause I know...

Verse

We would smile and laugh so hard, Till our tummy hurts

We would frown and cry so bad, That our eyes swell with each other

I would promise you the moon, But only giving you the skies

And I’m so sorry, That I can’t give you more than this rhyme

I asked you to be mine, When the fireworks were high up in the sky

We were sitting down beside the river, And there was a smile on your face

We had our First Year Kiss, With my friends cheering at my back

And so I told you, I’d always be there for you

2010-10-09T04:54:00.000-07:00

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide more
(oh-oh-oh)

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love's always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
(Woh-oh-oh)

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love's always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
(Woh-oh-oh)

I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
(Woh-oh-oh)

Give more, expect less...

Maybe this is the life, when you did something bad in the past, GOD will punish you in the future...But i shall preservere with patience...I can't stop the way you think of me...You can say that things changed, or that I don't understand...But no, you don't understand...And things never changed...It's just that i've been gone for a couple of days, you think I changed...And I understand...But sometimes you think too much...By thinking too much, you can actually destroy something...

You don't trust me?What did i do to make you feel that way in the first place?

Sometimes...Nevermind...

I got a lot to say, but hurting someone else with words or actions, is just not my thing...So i'll bear with this pain...

And maybe you don't know me well enough...

Oh FYI, i have proven my words countless of times...

Maybe you should do some reflection before shooting me with barrels of bullets...

2010-09-28T08:44:00.000-07:00

On the Eve of my Birthday, 25th September, i went out with my beloved to have a picnic...

Initially, we wanted to catch a movie and just have dinner...

But i have done that for her birthday, so i wanted to do something different...
HEHE!

Beloved reached my place around 10 in the morning, we went shopping to buy last minute groceries to cook for our picnic...

We prepared 8 Fish n' Chips and Soggy fries which i threw up after eating LOL...

We headed to ECP in a cab and once we reached there, it was raining...

However i remain optimistic!*as always* and straight away pitched up the tent!

It was a little hectic cause the tent was almost a decade old...

Well, i don't want to say much but...

IT WAS DAMN FUN!

Thank You Izzaidah Bte Kassim for making my Birthday such a memorable day!

I pray hard that we do this on each of our birthday in the future!

LOVE YOU BABY!

2010-09-18T19:07:00.000-07:00

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

I can't tell ya baby what went wrong
I can't make you feel what you felt so long ago
I'll let it show
I can't give you back what's been hurt
Heartaches come and go and all that's left are the words
I can't let go

I can't feel the things that cause you pain
I can't clear my heart of your love it falls like rain
Ain't the same
I hear you calling far away
Tearing through my soul I just can't take another day

Do you wanna see me beggin' baby
Can't you give me just one more day
Can't you see my heart's been draggin' lately
I've been lookin' for the words to say

2010-09-03T01:32:00.000-07:00

Did you remember saying this?

"When we go a long way in this relationship, you wouldn't be as sweet as you are now"

And i proved you wrong!

:)

Maan Rosewood is still the sweet sugar eyes boyfie!(Kental nyer aku ckp diri aku gini)

Which guy gets on his knees to say sorry to you?

Which guy rode through the rain just to meet you,hug you and say sorry?

Which guy came back for you and rode through the heavy rain just to send you home and got his phone damaged just to say and show that he's sorry?

Which guy came down to your place instead of going home and having a good rest just to comfort and say sorry?

And yes, till today, our 8th Month, i'm still that same guy(though not so idiotic and way mature"Thank YOu") and i will always try to be that guy baby!

HEARTS IZZAIDAH BTE KASSIM!

2010-08-25T22:14:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry, i just can't think of what to write.

I'll just leave this song as an 'update' after a long hiatus.

2010-08-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

I Miss You More Babygirl :)

2010-07-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

Ok so i'll tell you guys about my "Holiday" to KL from Fri till Sun!

On Fri,23rd July, I went to Clementi, to go to The Vibe to buy a Teddy Bear for my Baby.

After that, headed to NYP to meet her, and I was like 1 and a Half Hour Early! OMG!
Sat at the foodcourt doodling with my Street Directory...

At 12.20, she was released from class and was shocked to see me standing in front of her lecture theatre!

So i left NYP around 1.30, headed home to finish packing.

Ok!Now!Bulletin time!

FIRST DAY

3pm, left home.
3.30pm, stopped by SHELL to refuel and restock tidbits.
4pm, reached TUAS Checkpoint.
5pm PLUS reached a rest-stop and restock and un-stock(PEE)!HAHA!Ate Cotton Candy Ice-Cream from Baskin N Robins there!YUMMY!
7.30pm reached KL!
8.30pm FINALLY FOUND FEDERAL HOTEL!
9pm Check-In.
9pm PLUS headed to eat!
9.45pm, bought SUBWAY!
10pm PLUS OOVOO with Babygirl!

SECOND DAY!

6.45am Woke UP!
7.15am Ate Breakfast.
9am Went swimming.
11am Headed for SHOPPING!
4pm, ENDED MY SHOPPING!
5pm Headed out for DINNER!
6pm CONTINUED SHOPPING!
11pm Headed for bed!

THIRD DAY!

6.45am WOKE UP AGAIN!
7.30 Ate Breakfast!
9am Went Swimming again!
11am Check-Out!
11.15am Headed to JUSCO at Johor Bahru!
2pm Reached JUSCO!
2.15pm SHOPPING AGAIN!EAT AGAIN!
6pm Headed to Singapore!
6pm PLUS Reached Singapore!

haha!

2010-07-20T21:10:00.000-07:00

Bored to Death!
HEHE...

Leaving for KL this Friday at 3pm, and will be back on Sun,don't know what's the timing yet though.

Stay tune kids!

2010-06-21T23:01:00.000-07:00

Our 6th Month is nearing...

And i still can't believe it...

It's not because that I don't love you,it's just that i could not believe that i could last that long in a relationship...

*Hehe*

The 6th Month marks Half A Year...So what if other people thinks "WHAT?ONLY SIX MONTHS?"

Let them think what ever they want to think...

Like i always say..."Asal?Tak dapat kan??"

Hehe...

By the way Baby,some nostalgic pictures!

The first time i met Izzaidah Bte Kassim

She confessed to me that she was unsure of us at that time, well Babygirl, i was unsure too...But look at this picture...

Do you know this picture?

It was the night that i asked you to be mine...
*Hehe*

And look at where we are now!

Haha!

So what if you listen to RnB and i listen to Metal?

So what if i think Justin Bieber is Hot and you think he's not?

So what if i dress like i just got my clothes from the dump and you from some designer boutique?

I am who i am, you are who you are...

You will never ever get me to wear other pants than jeans...

I will never get you to wear leather pants either...

But I can stop arguing too much,and you can stop asking too much...

Hehe...

Like i say,you can't change the way a person live their lifes,but you can make it better..

I Love You Izzaidah Btw Kassim

*apa awak pikir bli baju mcm bli nasi lemak ke lau sedap bli due bungkus?

I swear that i have a funny father in-law...

2010-06-10T01:40:00.000-07:00

Verse

As each day pass

And you’re growing older

Seeing the sunshine

Everyday

I’d like to make you smile

Oh yes I do

Its’ a very special day

Today

Pre-Chorus

And you know that I’ll be wiping away those tears

Like I always do

And you know that our love is so unreal

Till I can’t believe it too

Verse

I’m not your knight in shining

Armour

Nor am I the man of your

Dreams

But you know how much I love you

Girl

Till I prayed so hard

Filled up with tears

Pre-Chorus

And you know that I’ll be wiping away those tears

Like I always do

And you know that our love is so unreal

Till I can’t believe it too

Chorus

Girl do you really know how much

I Love You

Even through the bad times

I’ll be standing there by you

I’ll cherish all the good times

That I have had with you

Don’t you worry now

Cause I’ll always be with you

Ending Verse

And you know that I’ll be wiping away those tears

Like I always do

2010-06-10T01:39:00.000-07:00

TESTING

2010-06-01T03:08:00.000-07:00

6.08 PM

Typing away to this lifeless blog of mine...

6.10 PM

Staring blankly into the screen...Such a daze...

Just a few more days to the Sit-Down at City Hall.

A Merger we shall not agree, for we are made by mutual trust and understanding. The five pillars were erected. Each of them agree to one motion,"The key to survival is not by standing alone,however, to stand as one."

A pillar crumbles soon after it stands.
For a different path it took.
The four bid their farewell.
Hails for it shall not be the fallen one.

Another pillar soon has its cracks.
For it does not respect the law and obligations of the counsel.
Plastered, however, its cracks could still be seen.
When it shall break, no one knows.

The Joker, The Warrior and The Loyal One are all thats left.
Their followers still loyal to them.
For when the Sun shines in four more days.
The three shall look into a new era of ruling.

Obviously i'm bored.

Hehe.

No really.

So i just wrote 'something'.

Sounds like Lord Of The Rings aye?

I have a question.

If King Arthur DID rule once a long time ago, why were there no actual records nor facts to say that the Legend of King Arthur and his Knights were actual fact than plain myth.

Alexander the Great.

William Wallace.

King Arthur.

Salahuddin Nayubi.

Richard the Lionheart.

Hang Tuah(Deleted)

Hehe.

Ok officialy bored!

2010-05-18T04:11:00.001-07:00

Will Be Covering A Song From Saigon Kick!

Stay Updated!

2010-05-03T19:54:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 4TH MONTH BABYGIRL!

Obviously i'm updating this post in class and this post is 4 Days late!Hehe.

Anyways, we went out on a date with my little brother tagging along(CUTE RIGHT).

Planned to go GV at Jurong Point to watch Iron Man 2, but it was fully packed, so we headed to Eng Wah at Westmall instead.

Reached her place around 12.45 or so, headed by train to Bukit Batok and booked our tickets for the 2.25pm show.

We bought 2 Nachos,2 Hot Milos and 1 F&N Orange.

The movie was ok,3 Star for me cause it was such a ****.

Since when did Iron Man had a TRIANGULAR energy core?And since when did he start to die due to blood intoxication?

Haha,anyways, seeing War Machine was my motive.

Not much battle scenes which was such a turn off for me.

After the movie, we took a cab to Sunshine Place to eat Mee Goreng,Kway Teow Goreng and Nasi Goreng, YUM YUM!

Then sent Baby home and we headed home.

I sure did had a wonderful time with you Babygirl!

And I kept my promise to have a Movie Date cum Lunch Date.

Now all that is left is to go to the beach to have our time. And it is coming soon!!

18th June till 21st June, having class chalet at Pasir Ris!

We'll spend one day there okay Babygirl?

2010-04-30T04:01:00.000-07:00

*Wipe Wipe*

*Dust Dust*

*Sweep Sweep*

*Cough Cough*

*Sneeze Sneeze*

Quite dusty aeh this blog?

Anyways!I've decided to post all my post in English due to some 'request'.

Haha!

HUI JIA LA!
SE ME SI AH!

PUIT!haha

Anyways, have updated some pictures on the left..LEFT!

See my AWESOMELY B-E-A-UTIFUL girlfriend!

TAK DPT KAN!?haha...

and yea...just noticed that i need to do some more shows to get more 'fierce' pics of me...hahas...

TOODLES!

2010-03-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

"Memang semua Mat Rempit sama sahaja!Sampah Masyarakat!"

Tidak dapat kita nafikan lagi dengan perkataan tersebut daripada cerita "Adnan Sempit"

Tetapi, janganlah kita pandang serong kepada remaja-remaja "Rempit". Dorongilah mereka. Dan seperti dikatakan Adnan, tidak semua "Mat Rempit" sama.

Sebenarnya, Mat Rock juga tidak jauh beza dengan Mat Rempit, yang memisahkan kami, adalah zaman.

Ya, memang Mat Rock sampah masyarakat. Yang minum, yang merokok,yang mengambil dadah, dan yang mengundang seks luar nikah.

Aku tidak jauh beza juga, Sampah Masyarakat.

Yang hanyut di dalam percintaan dengan seorang gadis canggih.

Berbaju Denim,Seluar Jeans,berkasut Boot, dengan rantai kelilingi pinggang, itulah aku, memang aku tidak boleh berubah, kerana dengan pakaian dan hidup ini, aku dapat meluahkan perasaanku. Inilah aku...

Memang ada kalanya, aku memakai seragam, berkasut mewa dan berseluar cekap, rasanya seperti megah dan handal, tetapi, aku tidak selesa. Biar aku berpakaian sendiri, pakaian ku, hidup aku...

:) Azalea, aku tidak bermakna untuk tidak berubah pakaianku, tetapi inilah caraku, hidupku, yang engkau terima sebelum engkau menjadi kekasihku.

HEEEE!

ROMANTIC PER AKU!

A few days ago, AR went out for a Shopping Date, bought two pairs of Levis Jeans, and Two Caramal Frappe.

ok da malas nk critekna..haha!

2010-02-05T19:48:00.000-08:00

1 Month!

1 Month!

1 Month!

Hehe, but this post is way after our 1st month...

Sweet right?Haha!

Maan Rosewood & Irizah Azalea

Her name is damn cool laaaaa...
her name is like a metal goddess..the Azalea part..

niways!speaking of metal gods..it seems that no one has yet to take over Rob's tittle of it..even Tim Owens!

this is one of the covers from King Diamond that tim covered..

WICKED!

but still, he can't beat Rob Halford... :)

FUCKING SHIT!this cover is great!

WOO!!i'm getting goosebumps!

i can't wait to gig again...serious shit...

i wana SCREAM the shit out of everything..hahahahaha!!!!!!!

And Baby, i'll try not to always spot your mistakes ok?

Moshi Moshi

Menjeng...tsk...hahas!

ok da..

sorang per!?

tak ah ngn roti!?!?!?!?!?

2010-01-17T05:41:00.000-08:00

Nice right the cake!!?!?!?!?!

It taste superb!

Today is the 17th of Jan 2010,me and mum plan to celebrate adik's birthday which is actually on the 18th but we're afraid we didn't have the time due to work, so we push it a day early.

So i bought for him the Chocolate Dome Cake and the RC Helicopter...

HEEEEE....

Birthday Boy's Happy!

My girlfriend is taking my last name!Rosewood!

Nice right!!!hehe..Azalea Rosewood...soo cool...her nick is even more cooler!

Sooo..we're not going to meet till 31st jan!sigh...cause we've been going out too often..dun wana get discount from my future parents in law!hahas..

now i'm here listening to thaqif and apit's video..damn their voice are superb!!!!!!

2010-01-11T01:22:00.000-08:00

Never Ever Leave Home Without It!

LOL!

1st January 2010

Izzaidah N' Luqmaanul-Hakeem

The picture says a thousand words!Hehe...

Will update more about us ok?!

Sorry for the long hiatus, have been busy with work and Izzaidah..
2010 is going to be a great year for me!Hehe...I just knew it...

Mercenarian still going on strong!
Ironchild finally sees the positive side of life!
Rock Avenue is becoming an awesome band!
Memnoch Imperia is finally reforming!

Yea, and Blackbird is still seeing more new people...Tightening bonds with everyone!

And i'm finally settling down with my beloved girl!Hehe...

*B,jgn sengih2 aeh!haha

2010 seems to have so many opportunities!

Have trained so hard vocally, and seem to have loads of improvements...

Can't wait to have the next gig!!Hehe...
So here i am..Blogging...Renovating my blog here and there...
Texting my Izz..

It's weird though calling her Izz...haha!Cause i used to train this aspiring vocalist who's name is Izz Arrowheart!hahas...But that person is a HE...

Niways...wana rest...sick sick sick!!

2009-11-09T06:31:00.001-08:00

Finally updating!Hahas!

Sorry guys, have been busy with my busy schedule.

Well, this is my 3rd week working in St Regis!
Damn it's fun...

Everyday, i wake up looking forward to be at work!Hahas!
The first week was dreadful though, DON'T ASK!

Well enough of work, let's talk about life!
Hahas..

Well it's true, someone once said that "Life itself is an irony"

True!Haha!

However, i've been trying to amend my ways.
Yes...

Amend!

Amend and Repent.

I've learn that in life, never EVER return someone's hatred,ego,anger,or plain silliness towards you.

The best is to forget about their mistake,and never to repeat them.

Yes in the past, i've made mistakes to people,and some people have made mistakes towards me.

I'll forgive them for whatever they have done, and start over a new leaf.
However, for those who choose to return the way i've treated them against me,it's just a stupid decision.

Don't ever waste your life,please..

If i have ignored you in the past due to certain reasons,don't ignore me now as it will just make you,into me.(Reflection)And you are no better.

I've decided to stop all my nonsense.

I've decided to stop naming myself the victim.

I've decided to stop keeping all the hatred in me.

I've decided to stop blaming the world simply because it did not go my way.

Believe,Surrender,Obey

I've started reading some old holy scripts, and history and have seen what brutality God has in favor for those who oppose him.

And that God still loves you,why?Cause He is still letting your lungs take in oxygen,to live...

I've also learn some of the basic things that people just overlook.

YES,You are required to pray 5 times a day.

YES,You are required to cleanse your body so that your Solat will be "Sah".

YES,You are required to take the Wudhu' before Solat.

These are the things that people are too focused on.

However, everybody overlooked this matter.

In order for the body to be fully cleanse, Istinjak is the main factor.

If you do not perform Istinjak,your Wudhu will not fulfill it's purpose,and neither will your Solat be "Sah".And you have just missed your prayers for the whole day.

Once,Rasulullah S.A.W was walking with his comrades where all of a sudden, he took some leaves to be placed on a tomb. His comrades asked,"Why have you done such action?"

Rasulullah S.A.W replied,"For the soul in this tomb is tortured,not because of which he didn't fulfill God's wishes,however,he didn't perform his Istinjak,therefore, i place these leaves so that the Angels would lighten his torture,until the leaves are crippled,then and only then will his heavy torture resume"

The simplest thing like cleaning yourself can make you suffer in the afterlife.
So ask yourself this, how much do you know of your religion?
Yes,i can be an ironc sometimes when it comes to this topic,however i imbed these knowledge deep in me,and the reason why you are always turning down and mocking me of these subject is because you know that you have committed a sin.
I'm no Saint,nor a Religious Teacher,however i've not forgoten on who gave me life,and tp who will my soul return to.

I thank my Mother for sending me still to these Islamic studies, even though some people might just laugh at me saying that,"You're still in Ngaji classes?Haven't you completed?You're too old for this"

The further you age,the deeper you need to dig for knowledge.

For Mercenarian's new original entittled, "Time"

You will realise how much meaningful the lyrics are.
Yes,i'm trying to implement certain religious value into my songs.

Here's a short stanza,

Satan is calling,
Commanding him venerate.
For the sermons decieved,
Manipulating minds besieged.

These stanzas have a greater meaning.Ponder over it.

I'm not afraid to be mocked by my fellow friends about this.
Because at the end of the day,you know of what is right,and what is wrong.

Angels And Demons is such a bore!haha!!!

2009-09-15T05:49:00.000-07:00

Kesalku

Verse

Engkau bagaikan
Mutiara didalam hidupku
Apabila kegelapan
Engkau menjadi cahaya sinarku
Kata-kata cintamu
Masih terngiang ditelingaku
Sekarang yang ada
Hanya kesepian dijiwaku

Chorus

Dewi engkau adalah segala-galanya
Ku mohon maaf atas kesilapanku
Sayang dan rindu masih kekal dihatiku
Yang tinggal
Kesalku
Kesalku

Verse

Kini aku keseorangan
Tiada lagi engkau disisiku
Apa yang terjadi
Menyakitkan seluruh jiwaku
Bagaikan kaca
Dipecahkan seribu batu
Titisan airmata
Menenggelami diriku

Chorus

Dewi engkau adalah segala-galanya
Ku mohon maaf atas kesilapanku
Sayang dan rindu masih kekal dihatiku
Yang tinggal
Kesalku
Kesalku

This song is dedicated to Iraah and Adam who is going through a difficult phase in life...And yes Adam,i was inspired by your courage to do the things you need to do by composing this song.

Believe it or not Adam,i was once in your shoe too...Having to decide,then,having to let go...It hurts doesn't it?It really hurts..

Reminds me of Someone...

Having to be deeply in love...However it was shattered by uncertainty...
No,it wasn't shattered by Lies,nor Hate,nor Loyalty...
It was uncertainty...Of what the future holds...

To tell both of you the truth,i wasn't even concern about your problems...
It was only when Amoi started telling me about the seriousness of it...
And when i look at Adam,he just reminds me of myself...And when i look at Iraah,she reminds me of myself and Someone...

Yea,both of you are in the wrong...But i shan't discourage the act that Adam did...

To Adam:

Bro,it took a lot of courage to stand up for your love for Iraah...And made that decision...If only Iraah knew the pain you had to go through...

To Iraah:

Hey little girl,i can see the pain in your eyes...Reading your blog,i felt your love for Adam,it was out of this world...Adam means a lot to you...But the truth has been spoken...

Adam,take a few minutes to read the lyrics of Kesalku...I composed that song cause i felt the emotions in you...That is something i'll still respect in you Bro...

And to Iraah,here's my other original,take a few minutes to read it...No matter what,say to yourself,"Aku Masih Mampu"..

Aku Masih Mampu

Verse

Aku berjalan seorang diri
Di dalam kegelapan ini
Namun tiada yang datang
Untuk menemuiku lagi

Berteman seorang diri
Aku nyanyikan lagu rindu
Lagu untuk mengubati diriku
Jiwaku kesepian lagi

Chorus

Namun aku masih mampu
Untuk berdiri lagi
Engkau hanyalah sejarah
Dan sebuah ilusi

Verse

Ku membuka cerita baru
Di dalam buku hidupku
Untuk mencari teman baru
Dan menyayangi selalu

Wahai sejarahku
Lupakanlah masa silam
Pergi jauh dariku
Jangan kau kembali

Chorus

Namun aku masih mampu
Untuk berdiri lagi
Engkau hanyalah sejarah
Dan sebuah ilusi

And the next song,is dedicate to Someone....
It's almost 2 years since we've known each other....I'm sorry for the mistakes i've made against you...

A cover from Osairis called,"Insan Yang Aku Kagumi"

2009-09-13T09:48:00.000-07:00

Just made a new account in youtube...

Want to showcase my love for slow songs!Hehe!Thanks to Stino or AnakDajal for the inspiration!

Here's my first Solo Original!

I'm going to concentrate on having my solo career in music too!Hahas...But Mercenarian and Iron Child comes first though!Hehe!

2009-08-11T08:18:00.000-07:00

Some pics from Blackbird Gathering!

Council Of Blackbird(Crow not in picture though!)

2009-08-08T08:50:00.000-07:00

Nightwish - Amaranth

Next gig,this is one of the few songs in Mercenarian's playlist...

Oh my....Haha!

Imagine me singing this song?Haha!!!!
Oh well,a good vocalist is the versatile one!

Tomorrow is National Day!
Well, i'm not a patriotic guy,but meeting my Brothers and Sisters are the thoughts that intrigues me!
But such a dear,i have to bring along my 11-Year-Old Brother!Haha

Ah well,got to prepare myself for my adult life!
When you have your own kids,you can't just leave them at home can't you!Haha...

And i really hope to go to New Zealand!
Wee!!!!

Hmm!I'm into talking about Woman,wait,Chicks!,who are vocalist for some of the most greatest band!

Tarja of Nightwish!Well the old Nightwish!

Simone Simons of Epica!

Sirenia,Unsun,Within Temptation all fall 2nd class after them!

And i found a new band,Echoes of Eternity!
Oh my!The vocalist,such a chick!Orgasm!(Like what Someone always say)

Gotthard is another great band...His voice is sooo.....Manly?

Here is a song for all of you guys...

Crucifica mi amore
Si mi amor me ciega
Crucifica mi amore
Si este me libera
Nunca saber, nunca confiar,
Este amor debe ver un color
Crucifica mi amore
Si este fuera asi

Oscila mi tristeza
La siento al reves
Cuanda el viento llora
Dire adios
Trate aprender, trate encontrar,
Extenderme por la eternidad
Donde esta la respuesta
Sera por siempre

Its one of the most sweetest lyrics ever written!

There was once,i've ever chatted with this girl whom i was deeply in love with...
She would sing to me while playing her piano...
Hahas...But it's all in memories...

Oh and one more thing!

Japanese 80's Rock made todays dumb Cosplay!Haha!

2009-07-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

The Counsel of Blackbirds are going to have a meeting this coming Sunday...

Can't wait...

Finally,getting back all my brothers and sisters on the same side...And having some real peace and order...

And the Counsel is going to have some serious talking on how to handle some issues regarding the East...Somebody has been acting way to irrational,and have cause others grieve...It will be up to the Five Pillars of the Counsel to settle it...
Amen..

2009-06-30T07:12:00.000-07:00

Just read Someone's blog.

Hey...I can't give you answers...
Life is full of questions,and we have to find the answers,if we don't,we'll never have a good life...

Ok,let's not talk about this people...

"Kiss away the pain and leave me lonely,i will never know if love's a lie"
- Blackie Lawless,W.A.S.P

Nothing much to blog about though..Nite!

2009-06-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

Finally!After days of trying to get into blogger!

But now,there's nothing to blog!Hehe

GOSOK!JANGAN TAK GOSOK!GOSOK!

And it was effing nice!Omg...I need to do it again!

Haha!

2009-06-18T04:36:00.000-07:00

16th June,had barbeque pit with HA(Juniors)!

Hahas!

Finish my performance at UCC at around 4.
Went home and bath,packed and headed out again aroud 4.30?
Called Armand to check on my supplies,turn out there was none!Hahas...
Wanted to call Crow,but remembered he was in ______...Hahas,can't reveal to anyone about this,only certain people know...

So in the end,called up Fiq to tell him that there was no supply...
Headed to Jurong East MRT to buy a pack for them and picked up Sayang(Not Official Yet)...

Met Sayang around 5.30,she's on time!I like that!Haha...
In the MRT,things we kind of awkward,cause as some of you know,i'm not a physically-abled-boyfriend!Haha!!!

However around Outram Park,there was a seat beside her and i sat down of course!

Around Bugis then i held her hand!Haha!!!!Damn i'm like Mr Francis!Haha!

Reached Tampines around 6.30 i think,called Fiq,he told me the directions,lazy arse,told me in the first place that he wanted to pick me up!Oh well,more time with Sayang!

Reached the pit around 7 i guess?
Saw HA and a few of their friends,Mr Alvin,Ms Lee and Mr Alan...

Sat with Sayang on a bench...Need to spend my time with her as she's going off around 8.30...

Acap,Taufiq and Shafiq were all laughing and cheering on,i'm like,ok?Hahas!

When Sayang went home,that's where the party started!
Took some satay!Sat with the guys under the pondol for some sisha!
Then off to Changi Village to buy some more food!Haha!

At around 1 and 3 am,few of us went to Changi Village to find some bapok,not to fuck,but to see what their nightlife was really all about,BORING!

They have real nice and huge assets though,however their voice can totally break your hard-on in half!Haha!

The guys bought some booze,Malibu and Jim Bean!The smell,authentic!
However since i don't drink,why not?Haha!
Crazy!I was tempted like hell,however,i've got a bigger sin to repent on...

The whole of HA drinks,ok?Haha..
Acap,Nabila and me just laid in the tent talking crap and having racist jokes!Haha!That guy is a hell of a joker!

Pack after pack after pack after pack!Count how many!Hahas!
By 5,i was drunk...
Drunk with packs and laughter!
I was talking crap!Haha!

By 6 plus,most of them headed home..
By 9,only 5 were left!
Wanted to lepak with Fiq,however was to lazy as i haven't had my sleep yet!

Messaged Sayang,she was also in bed!Haha!
By 12 i was already at home!Slept all the way till 7.20,cool or what!

Had the greatest time with Sayang and HA...
Something Fiq said touched my heart...
"Kau sorang jek dari HK yang kiter bole click"
I thin i'm finding my way back to my old self...
And yes,HA wanted to click with HK,however most of the Juniors are shy...Don't know why...

However,Thanks for the Invite HA!Really enjoyed my time!

My first impression of Fiq?

Mat Drug,Mat Rep,Puki nyer jantan!

Now?

Great friend,always there

Haha!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-09T06:47:00.000-07:00

A few years ago,i completed this song,Sentuhan Kidal by Man Kidal on guitars.
Just a few days back,i tried playing it again,and i couldn't.
Really lost touch on my guitar...

To Someone,
I'm sorry for all the harsh thoughts,sayings and assumptions...
Maybe i'm so mad at myself that things didn't work out the way we wanted it too...
Yes,i still love you,however i'm vowed by my words...

I still remember the time here we had an arguement just because i'm getting a bike license.
And the time where your mum was thinking of inviting me over for dinner at your place.Hahas...

I can't just leave Someone...
I can never leave her...
Why?
Even though we're not lovers,she means a lot to me...
Even though she likes kicking guys in the part the truly hurts,she's different...

We share our thoughts,and we open up to our hearts content...
Heh,remember the time where i called and your mum answered?Hahas...
Someone,we may argue,fight or even hate each other for a short period of time,however,we can never go our seperate ways...
I know for me,i can't and never will...

I miss eating Mee Wanton at the MRT!Hahas...Too bad it's not served there anymore...

And yes,i'll never be in peace,if i told you to leave in peace...

*I still have your Holy Scripts*
Still cracks me up though,thanks...

Yesterday,i open up to Mimin about something that i'll never open up to anyone else...
It's about something so sinful that people wouldn't believe i'd do it...
I'll not tell anybody anymore,cause it'll just make them shove me away...
And Min,thanks for not changing your perception of me bro...
It isn't a waste if i'd died for you bro...

If i were to go bro,promise me you'll take care of my family for me,and i'll do the same for you bro...

Love You Bro!

2009-06-05T23:28:00.001-07:00

To Someone,

There's no use talking about all this arguments anymore,cause we'll just end up tearing each other apart.

Shrinking,avoiding and all,is nonsense...
Cause i've been tracking your life since the day that i've stopped waiting for you...
Somebody gave an oath to me to watch over you and keep me updated...
Don't know what you've been through?I've seen your life,most of the times,you conjure the problems your ownself,and then blaming on HER.

I still recall you swearing HER and i was so mad at that point that i just hung up.
You don't even remember half the things in our past life.
You kept all the stuff that i gave you to another person.
Your number is still one of the 3 free outgoing numbers for my line.
And have you wondered why i kept quiet all this while?And why is that somebody still watching over you?You don't right,and i've told you before,Change,Before it's too late,or you'll repeat the same mistake twice.

IF you THINK that I treat you like a DOLL,and not REGARD you as a CLOSE COMPANION of mine,erase me from your life.Like how you erase all your past.
And Sorry,but this is you 2nd mistake already,i gave you ample time.
Don't blame me for not telling you what this is all about,this is your life,you should know where the problem lies.

And as for me,i'll leave you in peace.
You don't have to worry,which i know you wouldn't, about my sickness anymore.
And yea,whatever it is,the person who is watching over you will tell you if i'm still breathing,or not...

If this hurts,it's because i'm writing down the facts.

And just to tell you,you're the only person who i share my life with.
And it truly hurts to the brink of ending my life,knowing that you think i'm not being there for you anymore.
If i can sustain your antiques for a long time,why can't you.
I don't understand it myself.

Adib told you something that made me tear in my eye...
It was during that incident where you were in a park,and i called you...
If you can remember what Adib said,think about it,and ask yourself why he said that...

2009-06-05T05:39:00.000-07:00

I need to go back to my old ways...

The old Maan...
Why have i changed so badly?
I really need to control IT,before i lose IT!

Enraging fumes hold me down
Before penetrating wounds sear a frown

Anyway, NO GUY SHOULD LAY HIS HAND ON HIS GIRL,OR ANY OTHER GIRLS!
Think you're a guy,you can just lay your hand on anybody?
To Shikin,he may be your loving boyfriend,but after what he did to you the night before talentime was so unbelievable, and you still have the guts to protect him by saying you fell off a bike?Wake up my friend!

And to my brother Min,don't waste your time landing your hand on that guy.BUT if he lays his hands on you,i'm behind you.*Tangan da lame tak melayang*

I'm being mad at myself,cause i'm seriously losing it!
Damn!I really need to be at peace with the world...
Oh God,forgive thy sins...Forgive thy past...I truly am sorry for what i've done...

And to Nyssa,that friend of yours,Izzat?or Izat?If he lay his hands on you,call me straight away,i don't care if i'm having classes or not,i'll run to your class and give him a piece of my mind!Seriously!

And girl!You paitao me 3 times already!Get ready to amend your mistakes!Haha,and yes,you can call me Luqe.My readers,don't even think of calling me other names than Maan!

Need to ammend my past,and fix my future.
I've made a promise to you,and i'll try to keep it.
For now,i'm not the person who you can trust.
Cause i'll just stab you right in the back.
Fury has taken over me.
And I feel as though revenge is the sweetest thing.
To make others suffer for what i've been through.

OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

*I need toilet rolls*

2009-05-30T20:27:00.000-07:00

It happened again...
Suffering from this intoxication...
Defying what others believe in...
Believing in a liar and lying to the truth...

Rather then putting a steel wall...
I've build nothing...
So that something could penetrate me...
And leaving the scar in...

"Finding Love In All The Wrong Places"
A line from Youth Of The Nation...

Maybe that's what i've been doing...

Someone said to me before, stop finding it, an it'll come to you...
I did, and it brought me back to the same place....Again....

No matter how hard i try, i can never be the guy who'll stop sacrificing...

At first, i had a crush on you...
However, i didn't want to fall for you...
A few weeks after making that decision...
Another feeling arouse me...
Everytime i wake from my sleep, I Miss You...
Everytime your number appears on my phone, I Get Excited...
Everytime when i'm alone, Your Name Is All I Thought Of...
So I wanted to give myself a chance, to try to at least, Love You...

We succeeded, however not officially...
We knew that we both Loved each other...

We shared it...We embraced it...

But now, you want to leave me behind...
With an excuse of going to London and maybe not coming back...
You always make an excuse when it comes to meeting me...
You always come home in the morning from hanging out with your guy-buddy...
You only, and ONLY reply my calls when the clock ticks at 10...
You NEVER reply any emergency messages...

You can go out with your friends, however not with me...
You have the time with them, however not with me...
You can call guys at night and plainly chat with them, however i can't...
You seem to be jealous over everything...

When you never did reply my messages,
I waited...And waited...Pushing all the stupid thoughts away, and just being optimistic...

When you always hang-out with your guy-buddy,
I push my jealousy away, because friends are way more important, and he's been there for you for so many years...

When I never even make any mistakes,
I Apologise, if i've hurt you in anyway...

When you rejected my opinion on going out together,
I remained calm and try to understand you...

When you made me angry,
I control my anger, and just ease the pain away...

What else must i do...

This pain that i must endure is too painful...
This path that i walk through seem familiar...
And this heart that i bring is to broken to be mended...

My eyes show my pain, and so far, only one person seem to recognise it...But why can't you see it...Why can't my own Lover see through me when a perfect stranger could...

2009-05-15T05:35:00.000-07:00

Miles Away-Winger

One of my favourite songs from Winger.Kip Winger still has his voice even after his band has long gone.

It's a long time since i blog!Hahas

Well,yesterday,woke up around 8.
After i've had my shower,i was just sitting in my room looking completely blank.
Went to pack my stuff and headed to SGH for my appointment.

Reached around 9.22 and registered straight away.Didn't have a long queue though.By 10 i was done.

Texted Nyssa asking where and what time are we meeting.She said that she'll finish her ceremony around 12.Damn girl,you got to check your hp at least every 10 mins for messages!Haha.

So i walked to Pearl Centre to grab some stuff,then took a cab to school to attend HPO Recreational And Events Meeting. -.- .....

Around 11.30,Nyssa told me that she's done with her stuff and i was shocked!Haha.So i called her and told her to wait for me at Dover Mrt.

At around 12 i headed to Dover Mrt.
While waiting,i was just staring at SP,again,staring blankly.
I was staring so much that i didn't realise Nyssa was actually standing in front of me.DUDE!Haha....

And yes Nyssa,next time,please wear proper attire yea?Haha!

So when we reached Bugis,we went to Nyssa's music school first,then we headed off to Hajjah Esah Cafe to have lunch.

Damn we're full!Haha...Nyssa had her first Plum drink in her whole life today!Haha!!!!!

After that,we headed to Mayuni Omar Music Cafe to have our desert,sweet!!!!!

So had a few jokes with Ain and Joe,then we headed to Sim Lim Square as Nyssa wanted to find a 8G Memory Card.

I swear to you,the questions she ask are so repeatative!Haha,poor Nyssa,next time,go record it then play!

So the cheapest memory card with a good brand is 57.90,correct?

After that,we headed to Bugis Village and did some window shopping.
Kind of miss doing it with my special someone after such a long time.

Then we headed to Parco Bugis Junction and continued window shopping!Haha...

At around 5 we headed home and poof!I was tired.

And yea,you're probably right,i've a lot in my mind that i've been hiding.
Cause i've like been staring blankly into this aimless world most of the time.
There's no real outlet to let it all go away for now.

Now,i'm too scared to fall for someone.
Let music be my company for now.

And Nyssa,that dedication stuff,go for it girl!
If i am the guy,i'd cry,that's so touching!

*BOO HOO* Maan loves to cry,haha!

Till Then!

*Irritating Kan?*

Woooooooooooooooooiiiiiii!!!

2009-04-26T11:37:00.000-07:00

Some pics from last fri!

Wan Joe,Me,Rusty
My fav guitarist from Fancy Rockerz...sampai bile2 gua support lu org!

Perkenalkan...dekni slalu angkat tin2 kosong pat geylang...haha

My Beloved Headbanging Buddy

imagine me with long hair...haha

ooo lalala..isnt she hot?haha

My wife,my daughter and myself...hehe

lau korang caye mmg korang dol!hahaha

2009-04-25T11:34:00.000-07:00

Da lame la sey tak blog!haha...

lifes ok now...needed to think loads that time..haha...

well lazy to blog la actualli..haha!!!

2009-04-11T12:53:00.000-07:00

Work was fun...
Joe and Qayum kept bullying me...

Dan dan kept on pestering me to go up stage and sing along with him...

And who do i bully?

Kak Ain of course!Haha...

Singing at Mayuni really gave me a new way on improvising my vocals.
Never in my life,will i be brave enough to sing Fantasia Bulan Madu which is unplugged.

And i've done two covers of it!

*Applause To Me*

However,life doesn't seem to be good...
I suck at walking the path i chose...

Oh lord...
Just give me some love...
Just some love...

Just feel like banging my head against the wall

Life is so different now...

HOPE HOPE HOPE!

USELESS FUCKING SHIT!

FALSE HOPE!

LIES!

DECEIVED!

ENDURED SO MUCH...JUST TO GET SO LITTLE!

But all has past...

FUCK LA!

2009-03-31T06:35:00.001-07:00

The Official Last In Line Trailer!

2009-03-31T06:16:00.000-07:00

The picture above is a mini-movie by final year project for a friend of mine.

And guess what!?

Mercenarian's first original,Peluru Terakhir is actually one of the Soundtracks in it!Haha!

I just received the DVD and the Official Soundtrack of it.

Damn cool!!!!!!!!!!!!

And Mercenarian's track is number 6!!!!

2009-03-31T01:37:00.000-07:00

Red,now i just noticed...

*Gleefully looking at the computer screen*

Haha!

Yes!

Red!

It's the colour of my post,and every post!
I start out with red!
Maybe that's my favourite colour?
Yeap!
My first colour is Red!Then Black!
TRUE!

Okay,i'm simply bored to mati!

Woke up at 9.40 am this morning.
Actually my mum woke me up cause she wants me to start up the bike and warm it up before she goes to service it.

After i've done that,i was on the com,as usual!
Played an online game called Bushtarion.

TODAYS PLANS

Go and eat at Mayuni Omar Music Cafe with my family!
Haha!Going to treat them!
That's why i can't go to HA's outing tomorrow at Seoul Garden,cause i'll be broke already!But i'll come down for the chill-out session!

Was suppose to meet Syed today to get the DVD.

Woo!A big achievement for Mercenarian!

Why?Cause Syed is doing his final year project which has to do with video's and clips.

He made his so called mini-drama with our song in it!Cool Shitzney!Haha

However i told him to pass to Kak Ain of the cafe as i'll be dining there later.

Literally!

I'm out of words,topic,chapters,subjects,catergory!

Damn!That is an old photo i found in my photobucket!Haha!

And oh my!Take a look at my old band!
Twisted Vines(a.k.a Rock-Et Rolls)

OH MY GOD!
My old Pop-Punk band when i was in Sec 3!Haha!!
Volatile Liquid!

I still remember the time when i did this collage to be placed under my desk cover!Haha

Haha!!LANUN!The birth of Mercenarian!

Ah!My 'what-used-to-be-guitar-set'

Nostalgic Pics!

Don't laugh!I was only sec 2 or 3 here!Haha!

2009-03-30T06:17:00.000-07:00

Today is Monday?

Yea!Haha

Woke up at around 12 cause i'm meeting Wan Punk at City Hall around 2pm.
Around 12.15,May called requesting me to come down to school at help him out.

Dude,i'm only halfway through my holidays and you want me to come down to school?OK!!!!Haha!

So dragged my BUTT all the way to ITE Clementi and met up with May.

Finished around 1.30?Then went to City Hall 7-11 to meet up with Wan Punk around 2.30.

Went to the tailor to take my pants,then Wan Punk wanted to go to Davis to buy some guitar parts which he damaged!Haha
While waiting for Lat,Wan Punk asked me to buy Ciggies for him.
And he wanted the cheapest one which is Limos.

I was like,what the heck?What brand is that!!??

Turns out,it's an APEK-APEK Ciggies!The smell is soooooo Tar-Ish!!!!Haha

And the best part is,the Ciggies wrote on the box saying,Class A Cigs.
Class APEK!Haha!

So Lat didn't came down,and we took 111 all the way to my house.

Chill out and check some hilarious Rock/Metal videos and some cartoons.

Seriously!You guys should check out this guy trying to sing She's Gone and he literally gave up in front of the cam singing the song!Haha..Effing Hilarious!

Wan Punk left around 6.30

Watched Ben 10,ahhh,my favourite show.

Now i'm waiting for Desperate Housewife and Mind Your Language!Haha

Oh!

Mercenarian's Comeback gig will be on 17th May at Bellzone which is located in Tanjong Pagar and our slot is around 3.30?

Buy the tickects from us,however i'm not known to the price of admission yet,so wait ya?Haha!

And to Nat,

LOL!

2009-03-30T05:50:00.000-07:00

This Is Luqmaanul-Hakeem

This Is Maan Rosewood

This is what you get for mixing Luqmaanul-Hakeem and Maan Rosewood

Haha!!!

Ok guys,here's the final conclusion.

Yes,Maan Rosewood and Black Rockvival are stepping down from Rockers League as the Organisers and Leaders.

We are passing the Organising Committee to May,Topo and Siraj.With 2 new recruits waiting to be enlisted!

The handing over of Rockers League will be soon and either to one of those 3 names mentioned above.

And NO MR IMRAN,i'll never leave Mercenarian.

I've spoke to my mum,that i'm willing to sell my Dean guitar which is Vendetta Series for $600 and let her take my maintainence money to keep the maid.
And mum replied that she won't let me sell my guitar,nor take my money.
And she just hope that my music life doesn't clash with my responsibilities at home.

I hope my friends out there understand that i may not be able to attend outings at times,and not because of any stupid excuses,however because of the commitments i have at home!

To Mercenarian,thanks for understanding my situation,and i really love the commitment you guys put into this band.

Oh!Can i say this once?

INFERNAL HAILS!

HAHA!

2009-03-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

This gathering issue has to stop guys

You guys are just tearing apart your friendship that you guys build for so long...

Yes one side may be right,the other wrong,but who has the final say?
All of us have our own opinions

For me,i'll still come for gatherings,(Depends on the time now since i got my family responsibilities to handle),however,Dressing Up for me is only during gigs.

Why?Cause,yeah,i don't want to attract much attention,however,the main reason is,it's going to be hot!!!Haha

Yes,Maan Rosewood used to dress up in full Leather or full Denim during gatherings,however i find it hot and pespiring is sooooo no needed when you're stuffy...Haha..So that's my view..

And i'm putting aside my "Outfits" as my mum calls it,and buy more "Smart" or "Casual" wear clothes.

Seriously,going out with my Non-Rock/Metal friends makes me the odd one out!Haha...

With other people in their Baleno or G2000 wear,Diesel stuff and all.

Haha...HOWEVER!

Maan Rosewood is still Maan Rosewood

And Luqmaanul-Hakeem can only be found when i'm not doing "Music-Related" stuff...You guys should see me in my smart outfit..Haha!!!

And guys,let's stop arguing ah...
Remember that you guys were once together strong because of music...
Let's just stop this debate about whose in the right and wrong...

Judgment is not for you to make

2009-03-28T07:40:00.000-07:00

Ok,the gathering was like trekking...Seriously...

I wanted to dress-up,but in the end,i just wore my old Denim Jeans and a Loudness T!

Why didn't i dress-up?Hahas,well caused i stopped dressing up for gatherings since last year...

And Jebat,there's no need to worry about uniting the Metal and Rockers,why?Cause at gigs,we can all be there...Don't be a cheapy and not buy tickets to support your Rock and Metal friends.

And uniting is actually individual's act.

And to those who have forgotten what i told you guys last year...

No need to dress-up for gatherings anymore,just dress-up for gigs.
Old Mercenarian,remember that sentence?

But nevermind,thanks to Jebat for the effort of organising this trekking adventure.

Next gathering,i'm just going to dress in my smart self already...
I'm getting ready for my Adult-Working-Life

And guys,if i were to leave the music world,
remember me!Haha..Cause i'll come back!

My music future is still uncertain

2009-03-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

Maybe passing down the responsibility of Rockers League is a good thing.
Why...?
Well,i've got bigger stuff in life to worry about,like my family...Sigh...

Mum had to sell away her van just to cut cost...Cause her earning isn't much and she needs to have more cash to support the family...
She got a job as a 'Sort-Of-Security-Liked-Job' at NUH...
And she's going to send our maid home to cut even more cost...

And as the eldest,i might have to sacrifise my music-career in order to support the well-being and moral of my little brother.

I'm sorry guys,but if the day were to come,i'll be gone...
I need to be that 'Dad,Brother and Son' all at once for the sake of my family...
I might not have time for gatherings,jams,or even gigs...
Weekdays,get home from school,take my little brother home,tutor him...
Weekends,send and take him home from tuition and madarasah...Sun,tutor him more,where can i have the time to spare for my music life...

My mum is going to work shifts...Sigh...

So guys....I might leave this music-world,one day...And that day may come real soon...

2009-03-16T02:42:00.000-07:00

Okay...So today is Monday!

Grrr...I've lost track of time during holidays!

*Giggles*

Oh my,i still remember being reminded not to giggle by Someone cause i'm a guy...Haha...Still remembers!!!!

I left home around 11.45 yesterday to meet up with Mimin Spider(Fuhlermak) and Zylaa at Buona Vista Mrt,and as always...LATE!Haha...

Took train to Little India and met Kai,Bopeng,Suzy and Black,and this guy whom i know of but don't know his name!
After that we headed to Mahligai to practise our surprise song for Adilah from Carrie which was Insan Yang Aku Kagumi by Osairis!

Gig started at around 3 plus?And Phenomenon did two songs just as an opening and i sand Wasted Years for them...
After that a few bands performed then it was Carrie's turn...
It was my first time not dressing up fully for the occasion even though there was a gathering after that...Well it's because most of the songs Carrie is bringing is mellowed down but high on notes...So i just want to be relaxed...Just wore Black Jeans,Loudness Shirt,and my normal Black Boots...

Rampage came to support and awww!I love those guys...
Man in their 30's acting like gay kids in their teens?Haha...
Sang A Tale That Wasn't Right,and Jebat wanted to tear cause of the little message i told to the crowd bout Dilah's condition...Sigh...I was almost in tears too,went off key a little bit because of that...

GET WELL SOON ADILAH!!!!!
Haha...She hates me when i call out her full name!

Then did the surprise performance with Black and it was unplugged...Awww...So of the girls wanted to cry...Was touched...And NAT!You were LATE!Haha..

The rest of the day,me and my Headbanging Buddy were a little bored cause not all of the bands brought heavy music...But we had fun!Haha...

Nam!!My favourite brother from another mother and father...
That guy can crack up any jokes on the spot...You guys should meet him...

After the gig,we went to PS to have out gathering...This time it was kind of separated,don't know why..Then i headed off around 10.30 after disgusting the peeps with vomit!Haha...

Reached home around 11.30 i think...

Gah...
I'm so tired again..

Oh oh oh!!!!

This was a picture of me and my Best Man who used to be my Pop-Punk Drummer
This was in 2005 or 2006 i can't remember..

And here we are in 2009!

Awww...I miss that dude...Haha...

Cheerio!

2009-03-09T01:14:00.000-07:00

-Past Events-

-2006-

Gig at Gas Haus

-2007-

Rock Alive 28/07/2007

You'll Never Rock Alone (Knightwings EP Launching) 18/8/2007

-2008-

Metarawk 27/01/2008

M.R G.I.G 09/03/2008

Amourgeddon 8/6/2008 (Rosewood Invitated As Guest Vocal For The Bullet)

Kamikaze Assault 22/06/2008

Silver Rock Gig 6/07/2008 (Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocal For Kingslavez)

Yew Tee Battle Of The Bands 27/7/2008 Metarawk 2 10/08/2008 (Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocal For Fancy Rockerz)

Dimentia Outbreak 2 23/08/2008

Mari Kita Rock 19/10/2008 (Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocal For Ironchild,Phenomenon,Opurzit Youth and Rockvival)

Rock Terus Rock 23/11/2008 (Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocal For Rockvival)

Kamikaze Assault Returns 13/12/2008(And Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocal For Carrie)

-2009-

Music Resolution 25/1/2009(Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocal For Carrie)

Music Save The Savage Beast 15/2/2009(Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocalist For Ignified Sins)

Tribute To 80's 22/2/2009(Rosewood Invited As Guest Vocalist For Fireblade and Phenomenon)

Tribute To Rusty Blade Competition 28/2/2009(Rosewood As Vocalist For Project Band,Rinjani Projex)

Rebellion 7/3/2009(Rosewood As Guest Vocalist For Legion,Skullmania and Convergence(E-Thereal))

My Music Portfolio since 2006...

If you believe,you'll go far...Thanks to Black from Rockvival!

But i've been thinking, till where will my music carry me...

Just got lectured by my mum yesterday bout me always having this "life" and not worrying about home...

Well if you put it that way,well i've been neglecting home so much...
Carrie wanted me to sing for them for this Sunday's show,but i got to turn them down as i'm too tired from my past shows...Seriously,the fatigue has set in...And it's kind of hard to memorise some of the lyrics now...

Suhaila,an original from Carrie is still stuck in my head,lols...!

Last sat was my show with Convergence.

Actually it was suppose to be E-Thereal,however their vocalist,Niz was called in for work in Mumbai and they had to call in Zul and Jumat(Kebayan) from Spellbound to take over.Spellbound on the other hand have some internal problems so they called in Kramat,he on the other hand fell ill and couldn't sing.In the end,Lan from E-Thereal called me in,actually he called me before Spellbound but i turn him down in the first place..Hearing what happened,i decided to play for them..

This was the setlist

As I Am - Dream Theater

Master Of Puppets - Metallica

Rising Force - Yngwie Malmsteen

I Want Out - Helloween

The Trooper - Iron Maiden

And to tell you the truth,i had trouble with Dream Theater and Yngwie Malmsteen songs cause i'm not a casual listener to their songs...

I was afraid to sing Master Of Puppets cause firstly,it's from Metallica,and they are Trash...I was afraid that my style of bringing their song would not be suitable...However,i just brought it into my own version,haha...Which was normal high vocal...Even Topo commented,"Master Of Puppets pon high aeh ko..gile jgk..haha"

And i got feedback from Trash fans that it suited fine..Lucky!Haha..

So ended up with a blast...Haha

Sang Mr Crowley for Skullmania as the vocalist say he couldn't sing and play the song at the same time...That was one of the reasons why i stopped playing the guitar as it affects singing as well..

So i was thinking,which version should i bring,Ozzy's version or Malmsteen?

Ah well,i though i'd just bring my own version...It's a mix of both Ozzy and Malmsteen's actually...

As a vocalist,i've realise how much people love you for being yourself..

When i first started out,all i wanted to be was like Bruce Dickinson!Serious!Haha..

Then i wanted to be like Rob Halford...However,when people start to say that i'm the next Bruce or Rob,it kind of hurt me cause i'm just being another follower and not the setter...

Treasure your voice for who you are and not wanting to be like your idol!Haha..

Mr Crowley!What went on in your head!
Mr Crowley!Did you talk to the dead!Haha

Damn,i feel like playing God Gave Rock And Roll To You by Kiss!!!!

Oh ya!Here's some pics of 2008-2009!Haha..

Many didn't recognise me in that photo!Haha

TILL THEN!THEN TILL!

2009-03-02T08:48:00.000-08:00

2009-03-02T07:20:00.000-08:00

Was suppose to have jamming today,but it was cancelled as Mamad is in DB and Jebat didn't learn all the songs that was required...

So we ended up with a new plan!
That was to have Dinner together...Awww...Lols...

By 6 i was out and headed towards Bugis...
We wanted to dine at Mayuni but it's closed on Mondays!Grr!
Met Wan Iron at Golden Landmark,then proceeded to Beat Merchants to meet up with Wong Plywood and Aisyah!Haha..*Inside Joke*

Waited for Jebat..
Then Jebat came with Topo,Azri,Kid,May,Apul and Fuzz(New Guy)...

Okay,the plan was just to have Mercenarian Dinner,but what the heck,the more the merrier,but the guys already ate...

-.-!

So i made a plan to go Haji Lane to eat and maybe sisha...
Most of them agreed,so we went there...

We ordered two sishas...
One apple,one cherry...
Apple has always been my favorite!Haha..

Then i ordered Chicken N' Chips and Orea Shake...
So as we're eating,i asked Nisman,when are we going to talk with Merc...He said later...

So after i finished my meal,i suck a few sips of the sucker...Haha!

U Suck,U Pay!

My Motto!

Then pulled Jebat one side to talk bout Merc with Nisman and Wan Iron...

Had a long chat which was like 45 mins..I wanted it to be longer but we got to wrap it up as Wan had to go off...

Then the rest went off,it was down with Me,Fuzz,Nisman,Aisyah and Wan Punk(Came Later)

Fuzz became my new laughing buddy even though we just met!Haha...

So finished up sucking the nice apple sucker...Headed off to Golden Landmark to lepak..

Bought Redbull to get my tongue spiked!Haha...And i bought the Classic Glass Redbull where the logo was still white,red and blue...!Haha

Went to lepak one corner and chatted and had a blast...

Fuzz: So what do you guys do during your weekends?

Us:*Looking Blank*

Fuzz: Don't you guys go clubbing?Partying?Drinking?

Aisyah: Nah,stop drinking already.

Me: I don't drink Bro.

Fuzz: You got to be kidding me!

Us:*Just Smiled*

Fuzz: So what do you guys do literally on weekends?

Me: We just go fucking.

Fuzz:*Raise Eyebrow*Man!?And all this while i've just been drinking?*Laughs*

You got to be there to really know the joke...Haha...

Fuzz made a lot of joke,and loads of his joke backfired on him which made it even more hilarious!

By looking at the time,its already 10.10...
So we headed off..

But we went to Raffles Hospital to have our Pee-Break..
Damn Me and Fuzz are the Horniest-Dude on this earth!We were like talking bout Girls!Girls!Girls!

And all the sex-related-topics!Haha..
While Pee-ing!Wan Punk laughed so i shouted gleefully telling him not to laugh cause it hurts when you laugh and you pee!Haha..

Then Wan Punk wanted to looked at me but i looked at him back!However he react wrongly and looked down!

Imagine,you're pee-ing and the other guy looks down...

I shouted,"Wan Gay Sia!"

Haha!

And that small toilet echoed with our laughters!
Wan was filled with embarrassment but kept looking at my zip!Haha!

Poor guy,don't know how to react!Haha...

Said our final goodbyes at Bugis MRT and headed back with Fuzz as he stays at Queenstown...

In the MRT we talked business like gig-making and all...He wanted to organise a gig but had no kakis..No i gave him a few pointers...Yea maybe we'll organise a gig soon!

Word Of The Day:

You Suck,You Pay!

Damn today i had such great fun!Haha...
Got to lepak with Fuzz again soon!

2009-02-28T07:19:00.000-08:00

Today had Rusty Blade Tribute Band Competition..
Took part with a project band called Rinjani Projek..

Didn't won anything..Was kind of upset though...Not because of winning as a band,that i don't mind..But i was aiming to win the best vocalist...Well,i want to see where all my hardwork have made me who i am today..But Sige-Sige won it...

And come to think of it...Getting all the comment...I'm quite happy with my performance...But yes,i have to admit,the bands that took part are all great bands...And yes,i want to practise more on my vocal..

Not to be the best...But to an inspiration to others...Chey!Haha..

Okay,i'll tell you guys bout what happened today..

Accidentally woke up at 7.30 am...

By 9.30 i was on the way to Aljunied to meet up with Rampage to watch them jam...
Damn they were good...

By 11,i was sitting alone outside the studio,haha,they were late..

By 1.30,they were packing up,Naaz was on her way to Aljunied..
Then Rampage had lunch and i just had a tin of carrot juice to like last me the whole day?Haha

Then at around 2.10,picked Naaz at mrt and headed off to Belzone via Wan Rampage's car...Haha,the guys thought we were a couple...Naaz and me were like....?ok...?Lol

Reached the place at 2.30 like that..

*Kinda lazy to explain wat happened*

So by 8 everything finished...

Followed the guys to eat at Banquet..Thanks guys for the treat....

By 10 i was on my way home...

THE END

END THE

*inside joke*

2009-02-26T07:45:00.000-08:00

Money,i need it...Oh Damn...I'm so short on cash...

2009-02-23T03:11:00.000-08:00

22nd Feb,Sun,was the most heart-wrenching day of my entire 18+ years of living...

That day was the day that i need to choose either one of the two who i dearly cherish...

But if this is the way my path is written,so be it...Who am i to challenge life...
I reached Club 6 at around 12 plus with Ironchild,Azri and Syarmilla...
Headed up to help Jebat settle the equipments..Jebat being a "Guitar-Only" person doesn't know how to set up the Drum-Kit...So there i was saving the day...But it ended up in a disaster cause everything went totally wrong as the screws were not in-tact,the levers were placed wrongly,thanks to Jebat!

At 1 plus,the show officially start...

Syadza and Aisyah was suppose to come down,but Syadza was out with her Aunt,Aisyah came but sat right at the back...

Nat and Tina came,weee...But Tina wasn't feeling well...And Nat,don't ask,she's being her usual-take-your-head-bang-to-the-music-self...

I was infront making sure the stuff weren't damage or whatsoever,it's also an excuse to be at the frontline of the performing acts!Haha...

So the gig ended at 6.30 i think...By then Aisyah went home leaving behind a letter for me to read...I read it while on the way to P.S...

Heaved a big sigh of despair...Over what had just happened...

This was the decision that i made...

Since i do not have the heart
To see the tears in any of your(Syadza N' Aisyah) eyes
I've decided to sacrifise my own happiness
To not be with any of you

It pains me dearly to have to make this decision
But,with God'swill,you will have a better future without me

Slacked at P.S with Ironchild,Carrie,Fai and Liz...

Su and Zylaa was being a dear by giving that warm-motherly-smile to cheer me up
Bopeng did all his best to talk me out of the problems
Khai and Azri with his stupid/lame jokes to cheer me up
Topo with his everlasting sentimental songs to juice up my feelings
And last of all,to Min...

Min,no matter what,a father nor a mother will never disown their own flesh and blood...No matter how cruel the words are being spat at your face,realise this...
Their blood,runs in yours,and family is all you need...
Don't hate them for their words,but love them for their concern and care

Min tried to condole me all the way,he was having an ever bigger problem,but he troubled himself to help me,that is what i meant by true friendship

Thanks Bro..

And thanks to all of you who have been by my side...

From those names unheard by some of you like Bianca...You're one glam lady that i salute!

Oh and thanks for listening to me Nat!

2009-02-19T05:51:00.000-08:00

Had a long walk home just now..
From school all the way home...Haha...
Crazy thing to do...But never felt the pain nor tiredness...Cause i was thinking all the way home on how to get on with this life..

It's something i do when i'm really depress...
Those who are really close to me would know my bad habit...Its' like drugs cause i won't feel any tiredness nor fatigue from walking that long cause my mind is all clogged up by these problems...When i reached home i felt like fainting cause of the heat...Lols much...

It's a good song from Poison called Every Rose Has It's Thorns

And i quote this from the song...

"Although we both lay close together,we feel miles apart inside"
"Though i try not to hurt you,though i tried,but i guess that's why they say every rose has it's thorns"

I try my best not to hurt anyone...But i know,somehow,i'll end up piercing their hearts a little...

I'm going on a job hunt tomorrow with Kid and maybe go jamming with Phenomenon...Maybe i can clear my head a little tomorrow...Night guys

2009-02-15T06:54:00.000-08:00

They say,it's better to sacrifise your happiness for others...

I've been sacrifising too much...Too much for my own sake...

Everytime i want to make a decision...I think about what will happen,not with me,but to that other party...Will it affect them harshly?Or will they leave me...

It's all about them,and not about me...
Why?I don't know...

It's just my weakness...

Heck,i can't even turn down my own friend who needs $50 to pay for her daughter's medical bills but i know she won't pay me back...

I can't even ask for my $20 back from a friend who owed me for more then a month...

Or $32 from someone who needed to pay for his HDB rent...

I'm in need of cash myself...But why am i still giving out charity to those who need it more when i'm struggling myself?I don't know...Damn i do not know...

And to Syadza and Aisyah,i need some time to think...
And to tell you the truth,thinking about it just equals suicide...
It's just so darn hard guys...

For now,i just need some serious peace of mind...

2009-02-09T06:05:00.000-08:00

I'd like to thank Muhaimin for being a real brother in my time of need...

Not saying that my other Bro's and Sis's aren't there,it's just that i didn't tell you of my problem...

And Min,i appreciate everything bro...
But,let's keep it low and not tell R.L about it aite?
You're one of the few Bro's and Sis's that know about my blog,so let them not know bout this,i don't want them to worry...

Just be there for me Bro...And Thanks a lot for everything...
The thought of you wanting to help me is satisfying enough...

And to all my dearest Bro's and Sis's,i'll be fine for now aite?

"hmmm....sad to hear bout my bro MR story...read his blog....am thinking wat i can do to help....he's the chief of RL...so..budak2 RL....sikit sebanyak tolong lar....am planning something that would at least ringan kan beban dia...but wat can i do....i cant do it alone...i need at least the whole of RL to help at least...tkkan happy samer2..biler susah kau hidup sendiri....lek eh maan...gua da bbl ngn rosli sroh baca blog kau...i hope i can work with him to come out with something..sabar bro.."

thanks alot min!

2009-02-08T00:59:00.000-08:00

Its exactly 5 pm now!

I've not much sleep this past two days...Lol much?

Went jamming at around 1.30...

After that went home and went to Ngaji...
Left Ngaji around 8.30 to meet up with Nisman and Aisyah.
Took a cab and reached like around 20 mins?Cool much...

Chill with Nisman,Aisyah and two of their friends...
Aisyah opened up to me about loads of stuff,pretty amazing though,haha
She's the quiet type when she's around me...
So she told me to help Nisman with his malay and all cause when we play a malay song,he can't get the feel cause he doesn't understand what he's playing for...
Then talked bout the stars and all...
We were sitting at a open space opposite of Homeclub

At around 9 or 10 plus we headed off to ECP to meet up with Ironchild
Upon reaching,Jai told us to chill at Coffeebean and he bought pure Vanilla With Caramel Frappe and it was damn power!Haha

Me and Nisman were like siblings cause we knew what we wanted to do with that drink!Hahaha!

Then after that headed to the pit,it was Jai's birthday...
Then Jai's dad bbq-ed something for us to eat...
Looked at my hp and nobody called nor sms...Okay,first time Aisyah didn't contact me?Haha...

So we just chill and all...Aisyah told us about her past and it was scary man...Haha...Then Nisman and me did some stupid stuff!Again!Haha...

We were like saying the same words together out of nothing!Haha...Great Minds Think Alike!

Then we were drunk....
Drunk by eating hot marshmallows with nutella!
Nisman still could go on but i was bloated like hell...Haha

Morning came and i only had 30 mins of sleep?Woke myself up by splashing in the open sea!Haha..At 7 am?!

Then played some soccer or should i say monkey!Haha...
Jai,Min,Faie,Nisman and me were having like a hell of a time...

Then Kid woke up and we all splash in the sea again..But Nisman headed home..Aww,poor guy...Haha..Nisman and Aisyah headed off and i was already feeling the boredness...Haha...

So played Water Captain Ball and Min was heavy like ****!But i withstand his weight!Haha...And Faie was always concern about his Dick!Hahaha!And yes,his Dick was jolting out of his wet boxers and Jai's girl was trying to avoid looking at it but couldn't and ended up laughing cause he was trying so hard to cover it...!Haha

Then bath and Jai and Faie were being gay by shampooing each other and slowing downwards...really,their hands were in each other's pants but Faie couldn't stand it and ran away!Haha...The rest of us laugh like hell..

Headed back to pit and i head home with Kid in his dad's van..I was already gone by then!Haha...

Reached home,called Aisyah for awhile and slept till 4.30!Haha...
Now i'm still sleepy!

2009-02-04T17:33:00.000-08:00

Ok so here i am in SAR updating my blog?Haha...oK!

Kak Pah here beside me being KEPO!!!!Dave just went off doing his ITE stuff...Haha....

And here Kak Pah says sedih sey!Hahaha...Gi mam la...hahaha...

kk...i'm kinda bored...n to min n syarm...i love u guys!yg lain tu nanti aku blang ye..tk semestinyer aku tak letak name korang aku tak syg korang!hahaha

Maan Rosewood

2009-02-02T01:45:00.000-08:00

Hey...

All i can say is,my mood just suddenly dropped...Sigh...
I got to know from someone that my mum might lose her custody over me and my little brother...It's because of her friend who went missing and didn't pay up for her bike installments.

My mum was her friend's gurantor and her friend went missing after a few months...Now as a gurantor,she needs to pay the bike company 10k...
If not,they'll pull her van,bike away,and even us...

I don't know why,but all i got to know is that if it happens,she can lose her custody over us...And i don't want that to happen...

It's not that i don't love my dad...But he's not the fatherly sort...All he care is work,money and woman...Seriously...
I thought of not taking the $250 each month my dad give me,maybe just about $100 and the rest give to my mum...
Last week,the fridge was almost bare...

$1.8k a month is her salary...Where can i find money to pay for that 10k

I'm not even 19 yet,and to reach a legal age is 21,by then and only then i can take the right to be the guardian for my little brother even if my mother loses her custody over us...

Mum is also suffering in silence...
Yes i know she has an illness,it's just that i don't want my little brother to know...
If he got to know,he would be sad 24/7...

A few years back,mum suffered from a major panic attack,and my little brother was already crying even though the panic attack wasn't fatal,so i guess you guys would know his character abit.

Being the eldest in the family suck at times...
You need to juggle your responsibility not only towards your life and school,but your family too...Especially in a broken up family...
Sigh...
If my mum really loses her custody over us,i think i need to quit school and start working to pay off her debts...Oh God...Please don't leave me in my time of need...

And to whoever it may concern...
I don't hate you,nor i want to stray away from you...
But i've found someone new,and i guess you should too...
It's been too hurtful waiting for you...
The sleepless nights...
And endless tears wept...

But i can still be there for you...
As a close friend...
Cause if you really know me...
I'm as loyal as can be...
You will find someone better than me one day...
One day...Remember,your name is still in my prayers...

And to that someone new...
I know you've been reading my blog from your workplace...
Stop that smiling,yea i know you're smiling...
Please don't judge me that quick...
And have some faith in me...

If you understand me and my work...
You know that i have loads of friends...
And i need to socialise a lot...
I've seen you sitting at the other end while here i am headbanging and talking...
And yes,i've listed you 3 names of the girls that i'm really close too...
(And one of the name is yours too)

I admit i can't make the whole world happy...
But i can achieve it by taking small steps...
And to my past...
It doesn't mean that our story didn't have a happy ending meant it wasn't happy at all...
Even with the tears and heartache...
It was a joyous and lovely path to walk by...
And lessons i've learnt to keep my head up...

To those whom i love and care much for...Yes those people who influence my life and whom i've influence too...I don't want any monetary aid,all i want is understanding and support...

For those close to my family and whom my mum is close with,just give us all the strength we need to overcome this problem...

2009-01-20T05:04:00.000-08:00

Alright here i am talking GIBBERISH again about my life.

*Laughs*

Been sleeping late this past few weeks...And i really meant it...Really late!

The longest night was about 4 am?And i need to wake up at 6.30 to get ready for school,how cool is that?That's the shitznie!

So why have i been sleeping late?

Its' not because i've been playing games again!

Even though i just bought 2 new PC games which one of them can't be played!Damned!
No have i been on MSN chatting away!

But i was on the phone...Yes on the phone!After months of not being hooked on the phone,i finally am!AGAIN!Haha

Who i'm hooked on the phone with?Haha!!!

It's none other then Ice from Merbuk Platoon!Haha!!!

Merbuk Platoon aeh!!!Don't play play ok!They're like Rockers League...

ONLY BIGGER AND BETTER!Haha

Yea,Siti Nur Aisyah..a ah aku panggil name penoh ko..asl?tak suke?tak suke bole bla sua!hahaha...!!!!
Siol ah..bobal ngn ko ampai 3-4 pagi bole jadi gile siol aku!

Mercenarian?Let's not talk about them first..Even though things are going ok...

Syarmilla!aku rindu banget sama lo!Yesh...
The only lil sis that realli respects me!haha...
I miss these people..

Syarmilla,Mimin Spider,Bopeng,Adib,Syadza,Dila,Siraj,Lemon and many more la actually...hahaha..

Aku pn rindu ko KASMAN PUTRA!My evil half!

I'm the full of Godly Rock,while him,full of Satanic Metal...hahaha..
Saiful(Geryon),where have u been!hahaha..

oh man i miss loads of people..Fireblade!Theobusion!I.S and many2 more..

haha...

kk till here!

2009-01-07T03:09:00.000-08:00

Hello guys!

This song is nice!Haha..
One thing bout old malay songs...

I never remember the tittles,but only the tunes..Haha..So came across that video and remembered that tune!

Updating?Not really...

Kind of tired...Well my brain is kind of tired i guess...Haha..

Maan Rosewood

2009-01-04T05:12:00.000-08:00

Alright!

Reen and Wan Iron just went home,now i'm here doing nothing!Haha,watching Michael Jackson's old videos!Haha...

The other day,went to Peninsular to actually buy an amplifier,but ended up buying a Shure BETA 58 A Mic,a silver-plated Mic wire,a Mic carrier, a pack of Dunlop Electric Guitar String and a GA-20 TGM Amp.

Cost me around 300++?Haha...

Alright,so next week,on Friday,i may have jamming session with Midon cause they're entering Rusty Blade Competition in Feb and they want to compile it up with me...

Still waiting for Jebat's friend to call me and update about the 24th or 25th show where they want me to sing for them...

Now still waiting for Hassan Rampage or Mr Doc to update me on the Life Records recording deal...So many things to think about!Haha...

Life?Ok actually...

Just sitting back and relax...

Yea even though there are a few bumps,i'll just be patient...

Now i'm solving a problem of my own...I really need my faith back...I really do...
That's all i need now...

The other day,Kak Dayang sms-ed me asking me out to join them at ECP,but i couldn't!So sorry kak!

I miss Anik!Haha,that mischievous little brat...
Last year,i was walking through Esplanade carrying Aqil and the Mats n Minah's were staring at me...I was like..."He's not my son!"Haha...
But Anik,oh my god...That little rascal kept running here and there...But the funny thing is,i didn't even scold him...I join him!Haha...

Kak Long's children are somewhat more behave...Haha...But they're too quiet...
Ahh!I miss them...Haha..

Oh well...Gtg!

2008-12-25T19:25:00.000-08:00

Dark clouds circle around me
Revengeful hatred blooms in me
Lies and Deceit patronize me
Apocalypse is calling me

Words are like knifes
Vows are like meat
Cutting through is easy
Slicing neatly is not

I'm a prisoner of time and space
Where all wandering souls are kept
My freedom is long gone
Cause the answer is now a question

Undying passion grows into dying love
Blooming happiness turns into empty hatred
Faith turns on you
And Satan is waiting

Screams,silent screams
I'm no longer screaming from pain
I'm screaming because there's no more suffering
Irony seems like a parody

There was once a story about a wise faithful young man...
He was being lured by the Devil...
He taught he could repent with tears or so the Devil told him...
If he could commit a sin...

From a mere pint of beer...
To jugs and barrels of it...
He was drunk till he raped the waitress...
Her furious husband came...
And blood was splattered...
Murder was the game...

He was tied by the villagers...
The Devil came and told him...
Bow to me and i'll give you freedom...
Darkness filled his heart...
God was no longer his saviour...
He has turned to the Devil...

His head dropped onto the ground...
His soul was trapped and marked...
He was the Devil's soul...
And he would not even smell Heaven...
And Hell shall be his home...

A song from Iced Earth-Dracula

Hey guys...Shocked by my post?Don't be...
Those of you who knew who i used to be wouldn't be shocked...
Okay,reason for it?
Some answers are better left unanswered!
Yes...

And about the Wise Faithful Man,is a true story which i think is from a hadith or something...

Argh....

Haha,to tell you the truth,i was just inspired by Iced Earth..

But as i said...I'm no Satanist or whatsoever...
So chillaka!<----The lamest word Savvia can come up with
And it has another meaning to it...Shessh...Haha..

2008-12-24T07:58:00.000-08:00

Woke up today around 8 am...Went to toilet and slept again...

By 11 i woke up officially and bath..By 11.30 i was out of the house and on my way to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Syarmilla.
Went to Mac first and treated Syarmilla to a cup of Caramel Frappe and i bought 2 Double Cheeseburgers with extra Pickles and Cheese!Yum!

Went to Mrt again to wait for Reen!Oh my god..That guy,never on time!Haha...
Yes Bro!NEVER on time!Hehe...
In the end he took a cab to Paradiz and i waited for Wong Sharul Nisman!Yes!Wong!Haha,my beloved new drummer's name is Wong!
Hahas..For that mean time,Jebat and Mira went to eat at LJS...So they headed to off first.

Man and Syah came and damn Syah's face was white as hell.Got to know she was just discharged from the hospital...Awww,get well soon sis!Then Wan Iron called and he waited for us at Cathay.
Me,Milla,Man and Syah headed towards Paradiz and met up with Wan Iron,along there Jebat was on the way so waited for him.Man was hungry so i gave him my burger,lols,share mah!

So headed to Paradiz and saw Reen at 7-11.Headed to Daisy Rock and met with Ironchild.So headed in the studio!

Man was waiting outside....And we were inside....
The whole band was like..."Where's the drummer?"

Haha!He didn't know where we went!Gundu jgk drummer aku..haha

So played the songs intended to play..

BUT some players never learned the songs!Shessh...Haha..

But we managed to play some songs like Hallowed Be Thy Name,The Trooper,Fear Of The Dark,I Want Out and Future World...
Heavy Chains we got some of it...

Peluru Terakhir was damn nice,i prefer this heavier and faster version...
We also got to summarise Pegangan Pada Khalimah,our own slow original!

Reen and Jebat always started off without us...Haha,always playing the song ahead of us...Damn those guys,very funny...

Finished and rest at a nearby stairs...
Had some de-brief with the band bout our upcoming shows like in April and June,about recordings for a compilation album in February and about the new setlist!Haha

Cool!Finally,i can put Blind Guardian as a choice in the setlist!

After that,me,Milla,Man and Syah headed to Bugis where Man and Syah headed home while me and Milla went to Beat Merchants to watch Ironchild jammed.

Ann improved a whole lot!There's no need to stand in front of her anymore to show how to sing the songs!I'm glad for her!

After that,headed to Plaza Singapura!Wanted to buy a new amplifier but Yamaha wasn't opened!Damned!

So headed to sit at SMU and chatted with Ironchild bout Min and Fai's problem.
Sigh...

After that,Min,Zyla,Jai and his Gf headed home by bus while me,Aris,Kid and Ann went to the MRT..

Halfway through,Ann took a cab home so it was left with us 3 guys...

Chatted bout the old Mercenarian and all and stuff about old Ironchild and the new Ironchild...

Reached home,had some food,and bathed...

Now i'm on the com!Haha!

2008-12-17T21:50:00.000-08:00

Hello!Haha...

Just came back from KL!YES!KL!

After 5 years of not going into Malaysia!Haha.

But going in there makes me feel a little scared?Haha,because of the recent robbing
of Singapore citizen.But as my friends say,dress up like a malay Malaysian,and it'll be ok.Haha,but every country will have their bad points too right!?

And i love Berjaya Times Square!Haha!

I bought a lot of Ray Ban specs!Rock beb!Haha..

Bought for my band some stuffs.
Bought some of my friends stuffs too!Haha.

Left To Right
For Shareen,Dila and Nisman

For Wan Iron and Syarmilla

For Galluvinci's mom and herself

Ray Ban and Police Specs

Mine,For Aisyah,Mine,Mine,For Wan Iron
And the wristBAND is mine!Haha

Nice right?!

First Day:

Left my house at around 5+.
Reached Anga's (Mum's Friend) block around 6?
And we officially reach Tuas Kastam around 6.30.
We rented a 7 seater car and it was huge!WOW!Haha..

We pit stopped at Ayer Keroh,Mum and Anga just went to the toilet.
So we continued to Melaka for awhile to eat and order a family painting.
And the Nasi Ayam was not that nice cause the chicken wasn't cooked fully.

Left Melaka around 12?Then headed all the way to Kuala Lumpur!
We checked in around 2.45.
Then we unpacked and doodle around in the room checking it out!Haha..
Was suppose to go swimming but Mum and Anga had a little arguement so we postpone it till 6?By 6 me and my little brother went to the pool below and it was freezing cold!Literally...

At 8 we headed back to the hotel and we ordered room service!First time!Haha..

At 10 all of us headed to bed,but i slept at 3?Haha,can't sleep!

Second Day:

Woke up at 7.30 and headed to eat breakfast!Damn the food was nice!
At around 11.30,headed to shop at Masjid India area and Petaling Street.
Man i bought a lot of stuff!Haha.
After that,headed to walk in Times Square mall for awhile and headed back to the rooms.We went swimming again!Haha!

At 6.15 we were out of the pool and headed to wash ourselves and we ate at Uncle Johnny!Damn nice!
I had Black Pepper Beef with Rice...Gosh...It's much nicer then Banquet!Haha.
After that,went to shop again at Times Square mall.Shop Shop Shop till i found a little shop named I-Socks which had the whole of Peninsular in there.Garh!!!!!!It was heaven for me...Haha..

Headed to my room with my little brother as Mum and Anga shopped again.
At 9,we ordered room service again!Muahaha..Ate and watched a stupid horror show.

By 10,everyone was in bed again,but for me,i ate the leftovers and watched Halloween!Haha.

Third Day:

Woke up at 8 and had breakfast again!Haha,awesome food!
Then packed our bags and check out.But we headed to Petaling St again to do some last minute shopping.Then headed back to Times Square and drove off to Melaka to pick up the paintings.Ate at Uncle Johnny again!haha..

Then headed off to Singapore!I got home at around 10 or 11..Was puffed!

But Syarmilla text me!Wee!!!Love You a Whole LOT!!!
And i bought her a Zippo Lighter!Haha!!Cool kan?!
So we text till 1 or 2?Then i headed to bed!Haha,no more room service...But maid service have!Haha

Maan Rosewood

2008-12-10T09:32:00.000-08:00

SORRY HA FOR LOSING OUT IN THE BED-MAKING COMPETITION!

The competiton was great,it was a tough one too.HC's ability to make the bed with perfection is awesome!!!

Well,at around 12,i was in housekeeping lab practising for the competition,but Taufiq was being cheeky and he made me wait for him for like 30 mins!Shessh!Haha..

The first practise timing was 10 mins...
DAMNED!

So tried again,it dropped to 7 Mins 1 Sec!
Wow,i was amazed!

But i really hate the kilt and the kilt cover,damn it's so annoying!

So when the competition started,i ran to the toilet!Haha,my anxiety came back again...No worries,it's a normal thing...Haha...

Well,finished as one of the top 3 guys,but still,i could do better than that!Argh!!!!
I was aiming to win the big prize to share with HA cause Ezan n' Mira wanted the the big prize damn bad!Sorry guys,i didn't get the prize...And one thing that made me so ashamed is that HA didn't win anything,i don't blame HA competitors,but,it's like,sad is the word actually...Seeing HB and HC cheering and jumping for joy just damped our spirit...Sigh...

SORRY AGAIN HA!!!

As soon as i reached home,i was puffed...
Phew,so i played PSP till 6?Then i slept till maghrib.
Woke up and continued playing PSP till my Bro,Reen called.

Damned bro,don't be sad.
Chill la bro!apa mau sedih2...haha..

As what the Metal God sang,"No regrets i'm standing,with the needle in my heart"
- Rob Halford

The way she left you...Blah...I couldn't even understand...

But as i say,"Forgive,and thou shall win"

Do not keep the anger,and frustration,that will be your downfall.

If you have been faithful and truthful,you have the right to be happy Bro,believe me.

Oh!I got this line out of the blues,and don't worry,i'm not worshipping Satan.

"In your God's carcass i shall engrave Satan's name,and with HIS blood that dripped from the Heavens,i shall satisfy the lust of the sinners"

Sinister aeh?

Astaghfirullah
I'm a person who commit sins
But i shall not worship the Devil
For the Devil would only bring his Demonic Wrath
And only God can bring Peace and Satisfaction

Allahu Akbar!

Lol...

I'm officialy Nuts...Ok Reen!Puas ati bace blog aku?haha

Maan Rosewood

2008-12-05T21:51:00.000-08:00

Winger - Miles Away

Chatted with Reen on the phone yesterday.Damn that guy is one funny bro...Haha

I pranked called him,and he sweared at me!Haha
Reen da pandai maki org!haha

Yesterday around 6,i went to X Jamming Studio to meet up with Edmushyta!lepak jek..haha..

Now i see the true colours of the younger brothers!They're gay!haha...joke la..

So just chatted and chatted till like 8.30...then i went home..haha..

OOO!!And i miss talking to my sister!!!!Kak Dayang!!!!haha...
gosh i miss her...we share almost everything man!haha..
and ya..last two days,got lectured by my mum..woa..felt like a small kid again..haha

mum kept talking bout saving money..don't be dad and all..then she talked bout finding the perfect one to settle down with...i was like..i'm only 18 la!haha..

"The harder it is to get it,the harder it is to lose it,"
-Reen Di'anno

go get your own true nick la reen!haha...btw..tanx a lot uh bro...seriously..
the only guys that i chat on the phone like for hours are only Siraj and Adib..and my old band?tk pena pn...but the new mercenarian seem to have that jiwe as a band and as brothers..

and dang bro..that caramel frappe can kill us..haha...kurang ajar betol!pey manis!haha

oh ya...haha..looks can be deceiving kan!told ya oreidi...haha..org ingat brader aku ni playboy...haha..korang blom kenal..blom la tau!hahaha

Maan Rosewood

2008-11-25T03:42:00.000-08:00

Haha,23rd Nov,Rockers League organised a gig at Club 6 with guest band Yakamashii!

Had loads of fun but was tiring cause i had to run up and down searching for people and making sure that the event goes well.

So here are some of the pictures!!!

Jebat,Me and Shareen

Fiq Rockvival,Zyzii Tiang and Epul Rockvival

Azri,Topi,Eddy Carrie and Me!

See!perspiring like hell!

Bai Ingitionz,Rahmat Malex and Me,don't ask me why mamat is closing his eyes!haha

Boi Raven and Me!ni la org yang byk membantu Mercenarian jgk!haha

candid shot!

haha..thats it la!!

2008-11-19T00:15:00.000-08:00

"Forgive,sounds good.
Forget,i don't think i could.
They say time heals everything.
But i'm still waiting."
- Dixie Chicks

"Heartaches come and go,
But all that's left are the wounds"
- Cinderella

I'm spreading the 13th Dec gig posters online via friendster now...

So tiring,eyes tired,fingers tired.

And i'm listening to The Evil That Men Do by Iron Maiden.

Gosh!Just for one gig,i need to at least memorise 12-14 songs?!My god,like a concert already.

Here's My Playlist for 13th Dec.

-Iron Maiden-
The Wickerman
The Evil That Men Do
Children Of The Damned
Fear Of The Dark
Powerslave
Aces High

-Spellbound-
Hiroshima

-Helloween-
Future World

-Carrie-
Suhaila

-Manowar-
Brothers Of Metal

-Mercenarian-
Peluru Terakhir
Taufan

And damn i forgot a few other songs.

It's like a concert already?!

But since this is the last with the Original Line-Up,i'm going to make it a blast!

And here's another setlist.

-Deep Purple-
Burn

-Helloween-
Future World

-Iron Maiden-
Phantom Of The Opera

-Judas Priest-
The Sentinel

-Loudness-
Heavy Chains

-Mercenarian-
Peluru Terakhir

This setlist is for the new Mercenarian jamming session.Can't Wait!Haha...

Like Kebayan from Spellbound said,"No Sacrifise,No Victory"

Mercenarian's Original Line-Up:

Lead Vocals - Maan Rosewood
Guitar - Acap
Drum - Lat
Guitar - Imran
Bass - Wan Topi

Mercenarian's New Line-Up:

Lead Vocals - Maan Rosewood
Guitar & Backing Vocals - Jebat
Drum - Man Plywood(Max)
Guitar & Backing Vocals - Shareen(Rin)
Bass & Backing Vocals - Wan

Notice one thing?The bassist short names are still the same!Haha.

Well memories will be memories,but there's no use pondering over the past.
Merc will start from scratch again.Hopefully by end of February,the Compilation Album under Rockers League would be done with Merc contributing 2 songs.

And our EP MAY finish at the end of 2009.

What else?

Oh ya....I don't know?Haha..

I love Rob Halford,I adore Bruce Dickinson,and I lust for Doro Psech!
Haha!

But i think i'm falling for Therion's vocalist?Or maybe Epica?Hmmm...

Haha....

FUN FACTS:

The back of my "7 Style" hair can touch my sides!Haha!

Guess what,i'm only at page 16 out of 25 in my Friendster friends spreading the poster!

Nevermind,just logged out anyway!Haha

Now i'm watching AC/DC video on youtube!Haha

I just remembered that i need to call Syarmilla,argh!Haha.
I owe her some "Phone Time" cause i've been neglecting my poor friend there.Haha.Till the point she say that i have loads of excuses!Haha.

Oh yes!Yesterday,i didn't ate much as i did last Sat at Simpang Bedok!
No appetite.
Now?Still no appetite.

I want to have Mudpie McFlury,Caramel Frappe,Blueberry Cake,BBQ Chicken Drumlets and some time to spend at Clarke Quay to watch the sunset.

Yes,sunset.Haha.

What's so funny huh?!Haha...

Yea,i know what's going through your mind,"Errr,Maan watch sunset?Haha!"

Right?

Especially you Sawi!Haha...Joke!!

But i've been sitting at Clarke Quay watching sunset since,since,since i know how to sit at Clarke Quay....Haha...

The first sunset i watched with at Clarke Quay was Reza and Ann!Haha,miss them loads!

Oooo!!!The first sunset i watched was with my old "Bestfriend" at ECP!!!!

The 3 of us Guys shared some good music,some good ciggies,and some expensive booze...Oh my god,those were the days...

HAHAHA!!Ciggies and Booze?You must be kidding me!hhaha

But yea,the 3 of us Guys were just sitting down chatting.
And my "Bestfriend" had a sickness which was a Weak Heart.

But he always uses that excuse to make the rest of us "Love" him more till one day God really almost took his soul away!
Now he doesn't even want to talk to me cause of his Ex?Hah,some people!
It wasn't even my mistake.Shesh.

I want to ride the Rock N' Roll train!

And i miss an episode of Gene Simmons Rock School!!!!ARGH!!!!asdhdowho hds3)@)*!@)$&!@)$&!!!!!

Haha...

Ok then,till here!

Maan
Maniq
Maandol
Maan Boyak
Maan Rosewood

2008-11-07T20:16:00.000-08:00

2008-11-07T19:14:00.000-08:00

Khalayan hidup senantiasa menjelma
Memperdayakan kita semua
Haluan hidup semakin kecil
Arah tujuan hilang tidak kelihatan

Mati menghabiskan segala kepasrahan hidup
Tangisan menamatkan segala sengsara hati
Kemurungan menjadi penglihatan
Kegagalan memberi kebahgiaan

Tetapi
Kertas khayalan boleh kita tembusi
Dayaan hidup boleh kita ubahkan
Haluan hidup kita yang menentukan
Arah tujuan selalu kelihatan

Mati menghidupkan lagi pergolakkan hidup
Tangisan tanda kekuatan dan keinsafan
Kemurugan jangan sekali dipandang
Kegagalan suata tangga untuk kebahgiaan

A wise person once told an upset old man,"Put some salt in a glass of water and tell me how it taste."

The upset old man replied,"It's disgusting and spat it out"

The wise person replied,"Now put the salt in a river and tell me how it taste."

The upset old man replied,"Much better."

Life is not in a glass of water,it's as wide as the ocean,or a river.

Problems are like salt that taste disgusting when you drink it with a small amount of water,but with a large volume of water,its taste is diluted.

Life is like that...Always look at the bigger picture...

I'm fighting for you,and at the same time,i'm fighting for my own.
And i realised,i've not been looking at the bigger picture.
To tell someone to be strong,you must also be strong yourself.
If you're their pillar,and you've dropped,they will drop alongside you.

Don't put our problems in someone else's despair,
help them,and remember,you're there for them.
Don't twist and turn the problem to make them guilty.

I've been doing that...Instead of helping,i just make people feel guilty of the things that they have might inflicted on me alongside the problem that they are facing.Yes Heartaches come and go,but the wounds remain.
However,i see the wounds as a lesson,not as a mark to remember the bad past.

Yes i'm different,despise me if you may.
This is me.
Sorry that i have to be different from the rest of the world.

2008-11-07T03:20:00.000-08:00

Okay,things out to be different,must have patience!

Be there at the right time...

Thank God nothing happened...If not,things might be different now...

Oh well,things happen right...?

Maan Rosewood

2008-11-06T00:50:00.000-08:00

Have you been to heaven?
Have you been to hell?

You wana go there?

Betrayal-Judas Priest

You are what you choose!

That song rocks.

Life has been not so great.

But me and my mum are finally okay.

About another issue that i just got to know?Don't know yet.I want to settle things peacefully first.

I need to enter Anxiety classes...two of them to cope with all my stress that causes these panic attacks...and another bad news jz bombarded me...the betrayal...

these is life....if they fuck u...fuck them back...

2008-10-29T07:01:00.000-07:00

Ok!!!Finally updating!

Ok ok!Went to Sour Puss to 'celebrate' Taufiq's birthday,then went to Marina Square to do window shopping but was out of cash,always!But i lack of cash for a good reason otay!haha.

Now chatting with Syadza's Aunt!hahaha...Damn your aunt is like a questionare!haha

What else?

Oh ya!Too many projects!!!wee!!haha

Maan Rosewood

2008-09-29T16:45:00.000-07:00

Haha,my birthday was great i should say.

Thanks Savvia for the great Doro pictures.And the card and all,been awhile since i've got all those.

Ah well,Kak Long gave me a Birthday cum Hari Raya card,and Kak Aini gave a sms,Kak Dayang..?Haha,guess she forgot,oh well it's okay.

Mum gave me $30,which was more then enough.

Dad gave me $100,Step-Mum gave me $50,and Dad gave another $50 for Raya.

To tell you the truth,i don't like the money that much.Even though it's a lot.

So i went to enroll for my bike license with that money.

All $150 of it,then gave Min $10,then left with $40 for jamming.

Mum's $30 still with,ain't going to waste it.

So yea,that's all for my birthday.

And Thanks for the wishes guys.

2008-09-29T16:22:00.000-07:00

Michael Jackson

Backstreet Boys

Blink 182

Slipknot

Hammerfall

Evanescence

Avenged Sevenfold

Dimmu Borgir

Guns And Roses

Manowar

Metallica

Iron Maiden

Judas Priest

Wondering why on earth have i put up these videos of different genres?Hahaha!

Good Question!

This was my life.If you noticed,towards the ending,i became who i am today.I stayed heavy.Haha,and somehow i grew into it(Not that grow into but really put my life into it)

From

Pop Culture

To

Pop Punk/Punk Rock

To

Nu-Metal

To

Heavy Metal

To

Goth/Industrial Metal

To

Melodic Death/Black Metal(This was only a short period of time)

To

Hardcore/Metalcore(Till I Hate It)

To

Classic Rock/Rock

To

Heavy

Haha,well,i didn't became like a culture of it or what,it's what i used to listen.But now i'm a Rocker,but it ain't a culture,it's just music.And i've lived my name up to it.

2008-09-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

Just some videos i looked through...Damn...These guys sure can sing...And they are my idols too!Especially Rob Halford!Hahaha

Silent Screams-Rob Halford

Wicked Witch-Demons And Wizards(Iced Earth & Blind Guardian)

These two songs,phew,great masterpiece.

2008-09-13T00:49:00.000-07:00

Ini sebuah cerita,bukan untuk mengungkit masa silam bersamamu,tetapi hanya sebuah cerita tentang aku dengan kau.

Selepas cerita cintaku tidak berputik dengan si dia,engkau menjelma.
Ya,memang aku pergi kepada engkau untuk menutupi lukaku dengan si dia,tetapi,di masa yang sama,hatiku terpikat denganmu.

Layananmu,sungguh ikhlas dari hatimu.Tetapi pada masa itu,engkau menolak cintaku.Namun,aku senyapkan diri.

Selepas itu,kau mengatakan yang kau sukakan padaku,tetapi malah,itu hanya sebuah kenyataan tanpa pikiran yang jelas darimu.

Tetapi aku menerima sahaja hakikat dengan ketabahan.

Selepas itu,entah bagaimana,kita berdua mula ada rasa suka terhadap satu sama lain.Aku memberitahumu dahulu,kemudian,kau pula memberitahuku.

Begitu indah sekali,aku telah menemui gadis idaman hati.
Sekian lama bersama,kau mahu menjadi temanitaku,tetapi dengan syarat,untuk memenuhu hasrat hatimu untuk lulus dalam perperiksaan dahulu.
Aku hanya tersenyum,dan memberitahumu yang aku tetap akan menunggu.

Tetapi,di pertengahan jalanan kita ini,engkau tidak mahu menjadi temanitaku,kerana hati tetap suka,hanya engkau belum bersedia.

Hati hancur....Hancur....Tetapi aku tetap bersikap optimis,mungkin pada esok hari engkau akan pulang.

Tetapi aku sedar,yang aku hanya mahu memilikimu.Itu kesalahanku,malah,aku telah membuat keputusan untuk kau melupakan segala janji,segala kenyataan,dan mula dari permulaan.

Itulah cara yang terbaik untuk kita...

Tuhan maha mengetahui,dan dia yang merancang semua ini.Kita sebagai hamba,harus menempuhinya..

Amin Ya Robal Alamin

Aku telah melihat keindahan hidup.Terima Kasih atasmu Tuhan,dan kau,kau yang akan tetap didalam hatiku.Insyaallah,di masa hadapan,dengan izinNYA.

2008-09-13T00:05:00.000-07:00

OK!

yesterday went out with class HA!weee...we went to Swensens to have our break-fast...buke tau..bkn sarapan..haha...had salmon n mushroom baked rice?

but it was ok..i prefer taufiq's mac n cheese!!!awww.....so nice....

MUMMY,IF I WERE TO LIVE MY LAST DAY ON EARTH,CAN YOU COOK ME MAC N CHEESE WITH EXTRA,MAKE IT OVERLOAD WITH CHEESE!

haha!

then went to esplanade to lepak with ms wen...oK?haha..

then reached home around 11.30?woo...not late yet...can go home later...but duwan too..haha...i need cheese!

Maan Rosewood

2008-09-05T00:17:00.001-07:00

Give More,Expect Less

That's what Achmad told me...haha...cool..

but i got no mood to blog...sorri

2008-08-31T03:21:00.000-07:00

The gig yesterday?Was truly awesome!

Thank You Rockvival for inviting me as your Guest Vocal with Jebat.It was truly magical!Magical sounds girly,well,it was truly orgasmic?Hahaha...Yes Savvia,your word!Haha!

Okay....Then i was incharge of the lighting and hell yea i did a great job!Haha!!
Humble can rest one corner for this yea!!!HAha!

Then was invited to stage by Brader Bo to give the crowd a taste of Local Band Music!!!!!!HAha!I mean,i sang them Spellbound's original,Hiroshima.
It was great man!!!Finally!I can show my love to Spellbound!!!Haha!!

When the crowd cheered,i was like,oh my god......Haha!!
Then Rahmat Malex let me sing a few of their songs with him!WOOO!!!

Haha,total counted,3 times the name Maan Rosewood is being mention to the crowd!!!!!I'm sooooooo not being humble now...hahaha

At the end of the day,i got loads of compliments like great lighting works and vocals!!!Wee!!!!ader orang cair dgr suare aku...ahhaha!!!!

okok..Humble time...

NOOOTT!!haha!!

but i did cut myself against the stage...stupid maan..haha

oh well....

I think i'm not ready to commit though
Ya....
Oh well...I still wana enjoy life!haha..

2008-08-27T06:19:00.000-07:00

Hansi Kursch of Blind Guardian?

Doro Pesch of Warlock?

Timo Antero Kotipelto of Stratovarius?

Ailyn of Sirenia?

Hmm...

These bands and their singers have been in my head...Haha...Especially Doro...wooo.....pretty...haha..

i like her voice n her clothes...wow.....haha..serious siols...

Hansi doesnt dress much but his voice is like magical...dunnoe y...

Timo?haha..angelic at times...

Ailyn too!!

wee...haha...looking tru utube of female metal vocals...

can i marry one?seriously...
haha...dress in full leather for our wedding...wa!!!aha

maybe i should huh!?haha..semue pakai baju kurung..aku pakai satu set of leather ah...bole per...tk slh...

skool is dead bored now..haha..i mean jz now...ony 20 peeps turn up coz the rest had soccer match n some cabot to support..left with me,aini and syidah..baikk...

aku sorang laki mlayu!haha...so damn bored..then cikgu tak ajar...adoi...

i NEED TO GET A LAP TOP!!really really...haha...

so when i get bored in class...i can watch utube and watch my darl Doro!haha...
nonono..dun think that i'm like u loving harry porter n wanting to marry him...
haha!!!

but really la...can i get Doro...

i use to like Hilary Duff u noe?haha!!!cool right..oo..and i like Miley Cyrus too!!!!argh!!haha..she's ony 16...ader chance!haha...

k lame la...

k back to reality..

tomorow going jam with RV...heee...this is the 4th or 5th time i got called up to be a guest vocal...honoured!haha..

still dunnoe wat song yet...need to wait for black's decision...woweee!!

OO OO OO!!!

Love Is On The Way by Saigon Kick is damn nice...

THAT IS THE SHIT MA MAN!haha

gonna miss Dan...bro u take care aite...jgn nakal2 dlm prison..so bole kuar cpt siket...

I'm listening to the song Scandal by Scandal...ok..one thing..i dun like the guitarist!haha

i mean..i dun hold grudges at people..but really la...Izzat Malmsteen!?!haha..his skills are godly...but his perangai are like....dunnoe?!

stead with zyzy...but left her...gosh...then still can kiss her on the first outing..wat the...betol nyer mat rock ah dier..

Babes,Sex,Rock N' Roll

Babes,Coke,Rock N' Roll

Babes,Ciggs,Rock N' Roll

Babes,Booze,Rock N' Roll

seriously la..get a life...

Light a cigarette,drink a few bottles of booze,have some 'coke',and lay some chicks...Woo...that's the stuff...NOT!haha...

play music so u can get all those?
no wonder....

i wana have Gene Simmons tongue!
it's long...weee...haha..

ooo..Bruce Dickinson,Rob Halford

Combine them both..

and u'll get...

ME!!haha..

Lame shit ass dork..yea..i noe...but cool!haha

k la....gtg..>!!bye!

2008-08-25T08:42:00.000-07:00

Ah!!Cinderella!!!so cool la tis band!haha

Nobody's Fool-Cinderella

Here's the lyrics!

		http://www.mp3lyrics.org/Dll

I count the fallen tears They fall before my eyes Seems like a thousand years Since we broke the ties I call you on the phone But never get a rise So sit there all alone It's time you realized I'm not your fool Nobody's fool, nobody's fool I'm no fool Nobody's fool, nobody's fool Never again, no no You take your road, I'll take mine The paths have both been beaten Searching for a change of pace Life needs to be sweetened I scream my heart out Just to make a dime With that dime I bought your love But now I've changed my mind I'm not your fool Nobody's fool, nobody's fool I'm no fool Nobody's fool, nobody's fool Never again, no no I count the fallen tears They fall before my eyes Seems like a thousand years Since we broke the ties I'm not your fool Nobody's fool, nobody's fool I'm no fool Nobody's fool, nobody's fool Never again, no no

argh..the liriks...soooooo good!haha..

I'm NOT YOU FOOL!haha...
bloody fool..haha..kekek pn ader..p realli..sdp dokz...

2008-08-25T08:13:00.000-07:00

Cool!!!lol...

2008-08-18T04:36:00.000-07:00

I like this version better than Raihan's one...Cause Haddad Alwi's voice is soooo....I don't know...Haha...

Btw,i did make my own version of this!Wahaha!!!But that was like 9 months ago,it said so in my imeem...Hehe

Well,life is okay now...It's stable...

Went to buy Raya clothes last sat,with my uncle who teaches me ngaji...
He said that don't be afraid,i treated you as my son long ago already..
Was so touched...

Anyways,he treated my whole family to dinner as well at West Coast..

Mum is going on well now,she's falling ill less,but still falling ill...

Oh well,like Achmad say,there's always a reason for every problem..I respect that guy a whole lot...It's a pity the girl he loved passed away...Sigh,be strong Achmad...
You're still young bro!!!His words are words of wisdom...Never have i meant someone soooo 'pure' like him...I'm glad that i quit his band,so he can concentrate on his stuff...Cause he's been you know,in the mosque,helping out,despite school,and yet still have time with friends.And he talks so calmly...haha..He's the first person not to laugh at me when i say i didn't know how to pray 2 years ago...Instead,he helped..He's such a nice dude la!!!...May God bless him...Amin..

ooo!!!!aeh syarmilla!!!u're dead meat i tell u!!dead meat!!!u made me wait for an hour...haha!!padahal aku yg lambat!haha...p ko lagi lambat!!grrr!haha...

ooo..kirim slm abg ko ye...dier hardcore nyer otai..haha!!

Ramadhan is nearing...I've planned to study back all my madrasah notes...haha...cause it struck me that well,Someone told me bout the solat sya'aban..haha...yea..it struck me...so i better revise all again..Yeap...then waking up for sahur,then go ngaji in my room...

I just pray for everybody's well-being.
I pray to God to give me strength to undergo all these problems that he faced me.
Enlightened my future,enlightened everyone's future.
Strengthen my relationship with everyone,so there will be no enemies.
Strengthen my relationship with my loved ones,so there will be peace.

asal aku doa sini?haha...aku baru prasan..tkpe..but that's partly wat it's my heart..ader byk lagi..haha..

kk..gtg...

Maan Rosewood

2008-08-13T04:49:00.000-07:00

Don't Know What You've Got,Till It's Gone by Cinderella

Its about me,my life,my past,my story...

The way i look at it,it's true...You don't know what you've got till it's really,really gone.She made a sudden decision to end it...The minute she say those words...I felt that my world was falling apart...You may not know how much you mean to me,but it really means a lot...But we got together again...Thank God..

People,i've learnt that,you shouldn't change because someone gave up on you,or you had lost everything.It means that you have given up the fight...As though you have given up on yourself...Are you going to change everytime something doesn't go your way...No...You shouldn't...

Yes,my dad left us to live on our own...But i didn't change...Cause i know,i have to stay strong,to support my family,to be happy with what i've got.Instead of frowning over what you've lost,look at what you've gain...Instead of always looking at the negative side...Look on the positive side...Look real hard...Then you'll realise...You've been a fool all this time...

Yes we do lose people on the way,but if it's our fault,we blame ourself,and make ourself better,not worse...But look at the new friends we made...And don't repeat the same mistakes...Yes we live our life once,but don't waste it...

To tell you the truth,when my parents split,i just wanted to be,you know,a spoilt brat...But,i look at what i've got...I've got my mum,my little brother,and her...That keeps me going on...If i fail,so will they...I can't put the threat on others because of me....So please people,think first...You'll regret if you went the wrong way...

If something bad happens,just look at what you've got,and thank God that you still have it...Hatred,Damnation,Jealousy,Confusion,push it all aside please...That's where your ego will come...And don't keep saying you're always right...Accept the blame if it's really yours...

Change...Change for the better...Think,yes people may not think of you,this is the world,but you must think of the people...No matter what...Be mature in understanding...You don't have to hit back if they hit you...There's better stuff in life...

As long as people see you..How you've been patient and all,they'll come to respect that and understand you better...Let the past be the past,don't linger over it by making your life worst because of others...

Because those who love you,will be affected if you yourself don't love yourself and accept what has been done...By changing for the worst,you still haven't accept what has been done and still lingering in the past...

I've got a new life...I've got my family,Someone and my friends...
Yes,they river may flow,but it'll still stop somewhere...
You may say goodbye here,but you'll still meet again...
That's what i've been going through...

I use to take things for granted...Treating people like shit..
Now people are treating me like shit...But i need to be patient...Yes,like Someone say,stand up for yourself,i do,indirectly,so once they know,it'll hit them so deep that they'll regret being that way...

So in conclusion,be that better person,no matter how hard the situation is...Cause that's the only way you'll win...Do you want them to laugh at you cause they made the problem and you became the problem too,by wasting your life and all?NO!
Be the solution,if it still doesn't go anywhere,then they are the problem,not you!

So people,hear me out,i'm here,i'm who i am...Cause i learnt from my mistakes,and by doing that,i believe that i can be a better person...
Keep that faith,no matter how hard it seems,it'll always come out good in the end if you know what you've done is true and good...

Someone,i'm sorry that i'm not there for you,i've been weak,i've been putting tears in your eyes,i've been making you mad...Especially in these times...I'm really sorry,and i've learnt from my mistakes...You really meant a lot to me...If i can show it to you,i would have...Have faith,the same words you told me...Don't give up on yourself,cause if you do,you've given up on everything,and you've given up on me...So please don't...Be strong...

You too Syiqin,be strong aite little girl!Haha...Bopeng,Zyzii,Ahmad(Shrek),be strong,no matter what...

Oh!Syarmilla!You owe me a gig!!Haha!!!Damn you!!!!!

This is for Someone....

I Still Love You by KISS

Maan Rosewood

2008-08-06T08:04:00.000-07:00

One after another...
One after another...
One after another...

Why can't you just own up your mistakes!

You're 50+!
Be MATURED for crying out loud!

I want to hear you say it!Not your new wife!
Why can't you just say what you want to say instead of people saying it for you...

Damn...Sigh....

2008-07-28T06:10:00.001-07:00

Hatiku Ditenggelami Lautan Yang Penuh Kegelapan
Hidupku Dipenuhi Siksa Dan Hakikat Yang Tidak Boleh Diterima
Adakah Ini Sesuatu Cabaran Dari Yang Esa
Tolonglah,Ini Hanya Sebuah Persinggahan

Aku Tidak Larat Lagi Hidup Di Bumi Ini
Mati Tidak Mahu,Hidup Tidak Reti
Hidup Penuh Onak Dan Duri
Mati Penuh Kesunyian Dan Sepi

Setiap Malam,Setiap Pagi
Airmata Mengalir Tiada Henti
Mata Terbuka,Hati Tertutup
Pangkal Jalan Pun Terhenti

Aku Kenali Siapa Dosa
Aku Kenali Siapa Sejarah
Tetapi Tidakku Buat Teman
Kerana Kawan Sejahtera Adalah Keampunan

Kesabaran,Keikhlasan,Aku Buat Teladan
Tetapi Ke Tahap Mana Puncak Kemarahan
Manusia Tetap Manusia
Tidak Semua Benar Dikata

Aku Membiarkan Langit Ini Terus Mendung
Walaupun Cahayaku Tidak Menyinari
Aku Ikhtibarkan Dan Buat Pelajaran
Semoga Masa Depan,Tidak Dipenuhi Dugaan

It's all about hitting the right notes....Haha....When you're in the mood,you can write non-stop with these thoughts pouring out...

And for those who like it,I thank you for appreciating it.

Life for me now,urgh,such misery...

One after another...Another after another...Never seem to end...

Why,why,why...I can't seem to get the answer...

When i'm quiet,i'm to be blame,when i'm out-spoken,i'm to be blame...

I'm not refering to Someone here,i'm just saying for those who treat me that way...

Another poem is pouring out now!!!

Setiap Malam,Penderitaan Datang Mengetuk Pintu Hatiku
Setiap Malam,Airmata Datang Menghanyutkan Hatiku
Setiap Malam,Kesepian Menjadi Temanku
Setiap Malam,Suaramu Membisik Dihatiku

Aku Kesepian,Aku Keseorangan
Kemana Arah,Kemana Tujuan
Aku Hidup Dimata,Mati Dihati
Realiti Dan Fantasi,Kedua-Duanya Hanya Mimpi

Yea,as you can tell,i'm not feeling quite well these days...DUH!!!

Been days since i chatted with Someone for hours on the phone...
Exams....I still remember those times....No time for other things...Just Studies...
At least we chatted for a few minutes....

Eversince i met Someone,i learnt more things bout life....
Patience...The essence of everything...

Scenario 1 here:
Boy: Where did you went to just now?You keep dissapearing...

Girl:I was with A.He needed some company...

Boy:Company?Hey,there's a lot of his friends here,why must you accompany him?

Girl:Cause we understand each other and he feels comfortable talking with me...Are you mad?

Boy:Yea i am,i came to this party hoping to be with you,however you seem busy with A.It's been weeks since we met,and you .............(Conclusion?HEHE)?

As we see here,Boy isn't reasonable enough.
As we all know the conclusion!!!Haha!Of course they'll get into a fight.

Here is Scenario 2:

Boy: Where did you went to just now?You keep dissapearing...

Girl:I was with A.He needed some company...

Boy:I see,yea i heard about his problems,how is he?

Girl:He's coping with it...Are you mad?

Boy:Whatever for?

Girl:Cause we didn't met in a few weeks,and today instead of being with you,i'm with him?

Boy:(Haha)It's okay,at least he has someone to talk to,hey,there's still a lot of my friends here,so it' s okay.Make sure he's feeling better.

Now look at that...Guys,which do you prefer?Scenario 1 or 2?Haha...

That's why i say,Patience is essential...If you are patient PLUS understanding,you'll always look at the bright side in your relationship!!!Haha...And that is what i learn with Someone...

So what if you partner have a lot of opposite sex friends?

I still remember an Ustaz saying this,even though it's not exact,can't really remember..

"Sayang Itu Bukan Hak Miliki"

Meaning, Love isn't about being YOURS!HAHA!!Good right...And it' s true..

Doesn't mean she's yours,your his,both of you have your own territorial pissings right?OOOO..That is a Nirvana song...Haha...

If you really love them,Trust and Patience...If something similar happens,choose Scenario 2...Don't be a stupid fool to fight over small things ok!!!I learn this is CME last year too!!!!Hahaha...

OKOK!!I remembered a joke...

Gina is a girl who can't pronounce the word "T"

She went on a vacation to Australia two weeks ago

Being in a foreign country,of course you'll feel lonely especially when you're alone!Haha...

So she went into a local bar...Made some friends...But it seems boring and she to an international bar...
It's also a bar, however the bar caters to international needs..So Gina might fine another Singaporean there...

While mingling,she found an American hunk named Robert
She had a few drinks with him...

From a few drinks...Went to several heavy shots!

Feeling drunk,Gina wanted to rest so she asked him to accompany her home.

While waiting outside the pub,he hold onto Gina's handbag and tried to called for a Taxi...

Gina wanted to vomit and she shouted for his name...

A few minutes later....He was apprehended by the police...

WHY???

Remember?She cannot pronounce "T"...So she shouted "Rober!!!Rober!!!"Instead of Robert!Haha!!!

2008-07-18T05:10:00.000-07:00

Wooo!!!Just came back home!Well 3 hours ago...Haha...

Went out with Someone!Hehe!Went to jam with her friends,then walked with her to City Hall,then to Esplanade...Awww...The feeling was soo close!!!Haha...I don't know how to explain!!Haha...I Just Love Her La!!!!Kill Me can!!...

Thats all!Haha..

Maan Rosewood

2008-07-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

Ok so here i'm updating now.

Here's for Antoo.
Bro, if you want to give up your passion for something that isn't worthwhile, i don't really know what to say.
You told me not to quit,i didn't,but here you are,quiting.
You say Mercenarian was your inspiration,keep that.Cause we,and I ain't quiting.
Think about it...

Life now is just ok...
I just don't know where to seek shelter except for Someone,but now she's busy with studies,and i don't want to disturb her.
Its ok Someone,i know what you're going through.

I don't hate you Dad,i really don't.
I just want you to open your heart to all your mistake.
I forgave you a long time ago.
Just don't trouble us anymore please.
Everyday Mum says about you,i feel the pain.
Just no more pain please...

Friends,not my Rock and Metal family.My normal friends.
If you don't like me,tell me.
Okay?

The reason why i don't hold grudges/damn anyone or whatsoever is that because i just want to leave this earth loving everybody.

Patience and Forgiveness
This are my principles
If life turn out bad,just accept it and forgive the people it in

Nevermind,i'll just keep on being patient...

2008-07-02T17:56:00.000-07:00

It's 8:56 AM...And i'm still not asleep yet...I just can't sleep...

Oh,i was surfing through youtube again...And i just love Amy Search...

Meaningful right?

The reason why i don't listen much to Indon songs like Peterpan,Radja and all,is that they don't have the same meaning as Malay songs...

80's Malay song was bout the true feelings of a human being...

Now Jiwang songs just spoils everything...They're just fake...FAKE I TELL YOU!!!haha...

I'm trying hard to cheer myself up,but still no smile...Sigh...

Sometimes i just wish i could replace the person in hospital to be me,and make both of you happy...I really do...Cause i just can't hurt you guys anymore...Sigh...

I don't linger over my past,i see my future...And i really want you in my future...That's why i try my best to keep you happy,even though sometimes things you say may hurt me,i'll just keep quiet,cause i know,at least you're not hurting...

Say it's sweet talk to typical minah's...But Maan Rosewood never sweet talks...

2008-07-02T17:29:00.000-07:00

If life was easy,it wouldn't be as special...
I'm sorry i made life so troublesome for you...
aper dengan kau siak maan!!!tak abis2 buat masalah tuk dier!?

I still remember my first gig,where i sang this song...I wish i could sing it again in front of her...And for her...

I know that i sort of betray you in some way...You were being open to me,but yet,i told her...I'm really sorry,and i really learn my mistake...Just don't stop being open with me since i'm the most comfortable person you can talk to...Just because of this,you want to stop being open again...Please don't...

2008-07-01T10:20:00.000-07:00

It's about 1:22 AM now,haha,i can't sleep...

Normally i would be talking to her now,but she wants to sleep,so it's okay,really...

One thing i'm grateful about having her is that,she's really understanding...
Really...

We seem to know each other in and out,and it really means a lot to me...Heh...

I'm sorry about making you mad...I'm really grateful that you're also a forgiving person...It was so sweet hearing your soft voice again...Your small giggles,haha...
You'd probably be puking now right?Haha...

Deny all you want,but your voice is really sweet...Awww...
I got her to sing for me a lot of times already!Haha,she's good on the piano too...

What more can i ask...After years of waiting,i finally found her!It's not that i don't cherish my past,but really,i'm so thankful that you came into my life...

Signs to tell that you're really in love with someone...

Who is the first person that comes into your mind?Ask this question followed by the others below:

When You Miss Someone?
When Your Phone Rings?
When Something Is Amiss?
Who You Pray For?
Who You Look Forward Going Out With?

Haha,some random questions of the morning,early morning...Haha...

Every morning i wake her for school
Every morning i accompany her to school by phone
Sometimes i would call her when it's her break time
Sometimes i would accompany her home by phone
Sometimes i would call around 6-8 to check on her
Every night i would call her to chat about her day and to say goodnight

If something bad were to happen to me,at least i know the last two person i said goodnight to was my mum and her...

Couples say I Love You for nothing everytime they hung up...

Even though we rarely say it,we know it...

And that if anything happens,we know our love was known...

2008-06-30T21:53:00.000-07:00

Please Forgive Me-Bryan Adams

You did ask me what would I do if I did something wrong to you right?I know you're mad even though you never really did say it...
I'm really sorry...

When You Love Someone-Bryan Adams

Yea,what he sings is really true...

God knows how much i'm missing you...

I'm just lost for words now...

2008-06-23T18:49:00.000-07:00

Haha!Gig was awesome la!!!!!!!!haha..

somebody told me that i was like Rob Halford...woo the Metal God who has a powerful voice but fortunately gay.haha...

i'm sooo pleased..but i still have a long way to go...haha...
life's been great somehow....heee....gota stop doing that..haha...

but i dunnoe wat to say actually...coz i'm constipated..gtg!haha

2008-06-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

Hah!!!Finally Updating!!!

Ok so yesterday went to ECP to have a Rock/Metal Pit.

So woke up at 11.00,bath,then headed to Clementi MRT to meet Saiful(Geryon) and Arief(Bopeng) to accompany Geryon to meet his mum at NUS to take some cigarettes.There we met Saffie(Jin),and then we headed to Clementi again because Bopeng had to buy some charcoal and i went to pray for Zohor first.

After that,we set off!Haha...
It was a short ride to me,partly cause i was being a stupid fool with Jin!
I tried to re-enact as a possessed fool after listening to Black Metal songs!haha,cool!

When we reached Bedok,there was only Siraj,Wan(Perot),my baby Dzul(LOL!) and Ely Evans.(Ni la janji mlayu,janji kul rape,dtg kul rape!Haha!).

When everybody reached,we headed to ECP.

Once we reached the pit(byk pey dekat dgn Mac!),Bopeng,Siraj and me started to heat things up.Haha!The guys went to set up the no-good-for-nothing tent.

I went to toilet with Mun as she wants to change and i went to take my ablution.
Then pray for Asar and ate Chicken Wings after that!Haha...

Went to dip in the salty Singapore sea!Haha!

Went out the sea by 7.30?Haha..Ely stepped on something and we had to call the ambulance!

Ok so i continue eating Chicken Wings and some Meat!!!!!!Ok!I fetish for BBQ Meat!Haha...

Then we all sat under a shelter and talked about ghost stories...
Around 1,they stopped and Syadza called..Awww...Haha...Cause she say she couldn't call as she might be sleeping,but she did,was so touched!Haha..Like Ahmad always say,"It Touches My Heart,And Tickles My Balls"..Haha!But i was really touched by it...

Then went to Mac to buy something,but didn't cause I was reprimanded by someone,hehe...So i didn't.we stopped around 2+ as my Batt went out...

Then i spent time with the guys at the waterbreaker!haha...

We talked and played guitar...It was so nice!!!The atmosphere!Haha..

Then it came to 5.30 where i fell asleep till 9!Haha!Woke up and went home la!Haha!!!..

Thats all!!!

2008-05-27T07:09:00.001-07:00

"It's better to burn out then fade away"
-Kurt Donald Cobain

Now i know what it truly meant...

I've seen many good times,many great peaks...
But it's true what they say,dreams do come true...

From my very first band,Jargon,to my very last,Mercenarian...

Those wonderful memories...
One day,it'll all end,but,the time is still uncertain...

I just want to thank all whose been there for us and me...

Thanks to Farhan from Knightwings,for being my vocal teacher...

Thanks to Rosli from Osairis,for always being there for us...

Thanks to Fancy Rockerz,who really showed us the true meaning of Rock Kapak...

Thanks to Rockvival,for always giving us opportunities to play in gigs...

Thanks to Zul from Spellbound,for being my "Metal" vocal teacher...

I dearly thank Zali,my uncle from Iridium,for being there for me...

I'll remember Ironchild,Fireblade,Dark Ulver,Krisis,Ignified Sins,Phenomenon,R.F.F,E.O.A and many more bands....

I told this to everybody....

"If Mercenarian were to die,i'll die alongside with it"

This is my last and final band,if it dies....I'll die too....

My dream is to be in a band that will leave a Legacy,and it seems i'm reaching it....

Thanks to Zamurai,Annas for being our bassist during our troubled times...

Thanks to my Band,Mercenarian,for being so forgiving....

Imran,Acap,Lat,Wan Topi,
i won't forget these names....You guys are my diamonds and rust....

2008-05-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

SYADZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY AKU TULIS PASAL KAU?
KAU ASYIK COMPLAIN KAN!HAHAHA!BAIK KE PER!
PADAHAL AKU NGAH CHAT DENGAN KAU PAT TELEPHONE!

HAPPY NOW?

HOW ABOUT NOW?

haha...okok...enuf....bye!

2008-05-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

Sorry that i've not been updating...A lot of things happen i guess...

Firstly, to all of my Brothers and Sisters of Rock and Metal,don't ever judge me again next time okay?Look where it landed you guys.

I thought you were my brothers,my sisters,but in the end,you just talked behind me...
But in the end,you all misunderstood me,now then you realise.

I got to know that some people were unhappy with me today...
I'm not blaming anyone,i'm just saying not to repeat it again,cause it hurt me real deep.

Fireblade told me that i'm now no longer tight with them.
You got to understand me,it's not i've forgotten you guys,but you guys never did update me like you guys use to.
You say i'm more closer to Krisis,and i agree,cause they update me everytime,like you guys used too.So how am i suppose to know everything you guys are doing?I can't be the one updating myself,later you guys would call me a busybody.

Bayul,a long old friend.You didn't like me cause i talked bad about another band who is our member?Let me tell everyone,i don't talk bad about any other band.
I only say what they are not capable of.And Bayul say i dislike Krakatau,which is false.Ask Fauzi,ask Zam,how much i asked them when they are jamming.
Till they jamm without me knowing.And each time i came to their jamm,i told them to improvise,and i really say their bad stuff in front of them,not behind.
And when other people talk bad about them,i'll just laugh and go along with the flow,but it really pains me to see our own friends talking bad about our own friends also,

Kai from Phenomenon told Acap that I've been busy lately after joined Anugerah Band.I didn't changed,you did Kai,and you admit it yourself.
I asked your bandmates,Rahu and Hidhir,and they say you don't even come to your own jamm sometimes.Remember i asked you to duet with me Aces High?You didn't even turn up in my jamm session.

And don't,please don't assume me okay people.Some of you just kept quiet.
You guys expect me to be there for you guys,but when your problems are over,you just abandon me...So may i ask,did i forget about anyone of you?

I cried knowing that you guys,my own family talked bad about me,making assumptions,and i don't want this to ever happen again.Okay?

If you know me quite well,i don't keep grudges against anyone,and i apologise to anyone who got hurt and all apologist are accepted.Let's just move on okay?

Mercenarian shooked little just now,Acap and Imran were fighting with each other about their different interest.Mercenarian,you are my heart and soul,seeing you guys every Saturday eases my pain,my sorrows...So please,no more fighting.

As for me,only God knows how stressful i am now.

And please,next time,don't misunderstand the situation and blame me again,cause it really hurts.

2008-04-28T06:30:00.000-07:00

Finally updating!Haha!

Ok,first and foremost,i really want Saiful and Safiee to get well soon.
I really miss those two.
You Mat Reps got nothing better to do but just pick a fight right?Why do you use a parang and not bare hands?Fight like a man next time.

Went to see my Bro's at SGH yesterday,the sight was so heartaching.Fuck la...

I couldn't bear the sight of them in their hospital beds.I stayed with Saiful beside his bed,was nearly in tears.I tried my best to make him happy since he was really injured.Fed him,i treat him like my own flesh and blood,and i treat all my Brothers And Sisters Rock and Metal like my own Flesh And Blood.Haiz..It was such a heartache..

School was great,been tiring man...really tired..haha...Almost down with my project..ok then..till here.

2008-04-12T22:39:00.000-07:00

Yo!Haha...

On the phone with Lemon...
Guess what!?She's grounded!Boo Hoo Hoo Hoo!Hahaha...

Ok so tomorrow is going to be my first day of school!Wee!Can't wait...Haha...

Yesterday went jamming with W.A.R...Ok,you guys still need to improve on your synchronizations..Haha...

After that met mum at JP to buy school accessories...Haha...

Then went to religious class...

Then went home...

Then talked with Dilah...Duh...Then nothing happen..

Fell asleep outside...Hahah!